Alexandr Korol

but it all felt kind of dead. And what did feel meaningful, what felt like a part of me and something for life — that was the books. And I understood that no matter who I was, who I became, what job I did, I would still be writing books. And ever since I started writing them in 2006, I’ve been writing to this day. Yes, there were periods when I wrote less, times when I wrote more, but not a single year has passed when I didn’t write. It’s like drinking water, brushing my teeth — I write every day. But you see, the thing is, this is my way of processing information. So, first and foremost, it’s really a form of work on myself. So many people might wonder how I manage to force myself to write so much. But if I approached it from a human perspective — forcing myself to write because I want to be a writer and write something for someone, trying to come up with something — then yes, of course I would have given up a long time ago, because that would be fake. But for me, it’s a little different. I write because I always write for myself. This is how I work with what I feel. This is how I work with what I think. This is how I process what happens or has happened. I plan the future, analyze the past, record everything — I keep a diary, yes. I record each day, meaning the present. I draw conclusions about what happened, good or bad, and why — I identify cause-and-effect relationships. It’s just my way of living. It’s like seeing with your eyes or breathing oxygen — I can’t do without it. This is how I think, how I process information. And then, there were just periods when I started doing this — keeping a diary — and I simply took all the entries in a row, even the very personal ones, or maybe not personal, some that I assumed could be collected and turned into a book. In general, my books are what have come to be, what have formed based simply on my own notes and personal writings — they are my diaries. Every day, I write down everything I feel, think, sense, what happens to me, what I go through — I record and analyze it. I’m interested in why, for example, in a certain month, in a certain year, I was overcome by doubt that lasted for a day — what was the reason? Then I try to identify, when was the last time or the time before that it happened, five years ago or seven years ago — I try to identify cause-and-effect patterns. What if it was the same because I was interacting with the same person then, just like now? I also identify periods when I was most inspired, periods when I was the most materialistic, social, when I wanted to communicate with people. I identify periods when I was deeply drawn into history, into studying something anomalous or otherworldly.