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Posted: Sat Jun 14, 2025 8:01 am
I, in a book, can do that — I’m a writer, I’m not claiming anything about myself personally, I’m a character in a book, I can shout, but I’m the character, and the author is the author. Don’t forget that distinction. That’s why it’s okay to break that modesty. But if I were a priest standing there in church, I would feel embarrassed and ashamed and afraid to say that the Spirit had entered me, that I’d grown to that level. I don’t think any real priest would ever say something like that about himself — he would even be afraid to think such a thing, that he had reached that level. But I personally know such priests. There’s a priest who, if you bring him tea, it turns into water in taste — the flavor disappears. There are priests like that. They pray so deeply, are so pure, have so completely given themselves to the Spirit, that the Spirit speaks to people through that priest, and people line up to see him from all over Russia. There are priests like that — being near them makes your head spin, all thoughts disappear. And when I write a book, I go into that same state, but I’m not a priest and I don’t claim that place. I’m a writer, a creative person. And he’s a priest — see, everyone has their own way. And maybe he doesn’t even know that. Maybe he doesn’t know the technical explanations. I’m writing a novel, science fiction. My task, like all journalists who dig, is to dig into all of this and find the truth. I dig from every side, from every angle, describing it all through my own experience so the reader can feel it even more — that’s the work. So not everyone realizes it’s the Spirit. The Spirit, imagine, was present in me my whole life, and only in 2023 did I find a name for it — that it’s the Spirit. Before that, I just called it some kind of voice, maybe aliens or angels — I named it something like that.
Question: You talk about the sides of light and about the trap of light in a person and in everything. Does it mean that this trap is the very matrix, or in other words, the philosopher’s stone?
Yes, you could say that. There is a matrix where, if a person commits bad deeds, the light doesn’t pass through that matrix, and there’s no energy in them, and the person withers, gets sick, and suffers. There are people who follow the right, righteous path, cultivate virtues within themselves, and let the light in. The right lens, light — it all activates in the person, refracts, and like from
Question: You talk about the sides of light and about the trap of light in a person and in everything. Does it mean that this trap is the very matrix, or in other words, the philosopher’s stone?
Yes, you could say that. There is a matrix where, if a person commits bad deeds, the light doesn’t pass through that matrix, and there’s no energy in them, and the person withers, gets sick, and suffers. There are people who follow the right, righteous path, cultivate virtues within themselves, and let the light in. The right lens, light — it all activates in the person, refracts, and like from