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[Alexandr Korol]

I’ve been living for a very long time. I just keep living and living, so many books already. Maybe this isn’t my first life, or second, or third, or even fifth.

Question: In chapter three of the fourth volume, you write about infinity — that it has a knot, and that time also has a knot. What is the knot of time? How does it manifest?

In general, the Spirit — yes, it can be connected — but the topic of the Spirit, the matrix, and the structure of the world are all related, yet they need to be separated. And in the second volume of “Alternative History,” I reflected on the topic of infinity. But I approached it like this: again, I was choosing whatever words I could find to describe what I was feeling and experiencing. The sense was... After all, I had come to know what the Spirit actually is, right? Which is already something very strange and unusual. Because if we now link it to Christianity and religion, the Spirit is something invisible, some kind of force that is present in our lives. In Orthodoxy, it’s depicted as a dove. Long ago, among Arabs, the Spirit was seen as a jinn. Among Asians, the Chinese, it seems to be a dragon — that’s why there are different dragons, as different spirits, as different gods. What I then begin to realize — something I fully reveal only in the third volume, but I start to discover it back in the second volume of “Alternative History” — is that the Spirit, whom I thought was God, is not one. That there are many spirits, that is, many gods, many minds or consciousnesses. And here I begin — after finishing the first volume and starting work on the second — to see this ouroboros ring, the serpent devouring its own tail, and I understand that it feels as if the God who created everything is controlling it all from the future, right from the very beginning. That’s why He seems like both the beginning and the end. And that the “I,” the voice I hear — that is me. And the force that is the Spirit leading me — that is also me, already in the future. That is, I’ve already become it, and yet I’m the one raising myself and controlling all of this. How is that possible? That was the moment. And that if I am already God or the Spirit in the future — or whatever name you give it — that’s how I reasoned back in 2023, at the end of 2023. That if I am Him, then right now I’m like in childhood, as if I’m just becoming Him. Which means, as I thought back then in human terms, that nothing can really happen to me — nothing can happen. Not in the sense of danger, but even in the sense that I couldn’t possibly go off this path.