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[Alexandr Korol]

with all my attention. It’s like I was trying to enter the world of people, but I couldn’t, or I didn’t want to, or it just didn’t feel right there. I would retreat into my diaries and immerse myself completely in them, writing them. That’s how I became a writer even at the age of 15-16. I always amazed people, even children, because they even lie to their parents when they say what they want. By the time they reach high school, they might say for appearance’s sake that they want to be someone good, but I never had that. I never tried to please anyone, I didn’t have those complexes. I always said everything directly and openly, as it was. And people felt it when I said that I didn’t need cars, apartments, that I wasn’t interested in any of that, and that people’s opinions didn’t matter. For me, happiness was a piece of paper with a pen, writing, drawing, and listening to music, and not being disturbed by anyone, because people only bring problems. That’s what I would say. You know, since childhood, I’ve seen how all people... Well, I know myself, whether I did something wrong or not. Can you imagine, since childhood, from the very first grades, I encountered situations where people could think badly of me? Like that I lied, broke something, stole something, or did something else. And this has been happening since childhood. And then I concluded that I don’t have to worry about myself at all because it’s not about me, it’s about people. They always think the worst and the negative, so it’s pointless to try to justify or defend yourself. They will always think this way, every person. So you are automatically seen as bad in the eyes of all people because they have, like, some dirt on the lens of their soul. And returning to the question, you see, when those adventures began, when I started hearing the voice and the messengers came — everything I describe in the first volume of “Alternative History” — and when at the end of the first volume of “Alternative History” I suddenly realized that what had happened to me was the Spirit, and that it was inhabiting not only me — if I may put it that way, I was connecting to it — but also that it was inhabiting my surroundings as well, as if this same Spirit was speaking to me through them; and when I realized that the Spirit and the Trinity represent the future, the past, and the present, and that somehow I had developed my consciousness from the future so that I could come here consciously, then I was shocked. And especially now, it turns out that very soon I will become this Spirit, and the way I was aware as a child, interacting with everyone, and being able to — it’s as if through me, back then, I wrote as if God