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And it leads me again to post something on social media — a photo with someone I’ve met up with, or where I’ve gone. And I feel like watching a different kind of film, because Peaceful Warrior or Angel-A feels boring to me today. I want something more fun. So I put on some social-materialistic Netflix series, and I end up doing the same as all the zombie-people. And then again — I fall out of that... like out of a virtual reality, like out of a multiverse — I fall back into the “corridor” and suddenly wake up and realize, “How did this happen? I wrote a letter to myself to stay conscious — and still I drowned in the human world, in society.” And I describe this very clearly — how to fight it — in the third volume of “Alternative History”. I speak about it in the first volume, and in the second — but in the third I actually explain step-by-step how to deal with it. And the system helps me with this — the Spirit is the one telling me how.
Question: On page 185 of the second volume, you said you tried to leave your path but couldn’t — that you were a hostage of the situation. Could you tell us how you felt while writing the second volume? Did you still have thoughts about trying to leave this path again, or had you already accepted it? Or on the contrary, did you eventually become glad that your path is so extraordinary?
I’ll be honest — even in 2025, even this year, those thoughts still come to me. It’s like a temptation — this feeling of being tired of it all. Seriously. And you know, there’s such an interesting paradox. Back in 2010 and 2011, when I was writing my first books, I was craving to be part of society, I dreamed of being a human being, I wanted to become one so badly — and I didn’t know how to silence myself, how to shut down, how to tie myself to people. I was ready to get into a relationship with the first person I met, take any job — just to become a human. Because I was so deeply in the Spirit, in the “corridor,” it was overwhelming. And I didn’t like it at all, because I could see the human world and I wanted to be part of it — but nothing worked. I remained this ghost in the “corridor,” like some otherworldly alien, like that boy in the movie Powder, or like the angel in City of Angels. I just wanted to enter the human world, but I couldn’t. And then the paradox came: the system, society, the Spirit, God — they shoved me into the human world starting from mid-2011, for nearly ten years — they pushed me deep into that human, social-material world. And now it was the opposite:
Question: On page 185 of the second volume, you said you tried to leave your path but couldn’t — that you were a hostage of the situation. Could you tell us how you felt while writing the second volume? Did you still have thoughts about trying to leave this path again, or had you already accepted it? Or on the contrary, did you eventually become glad that your path is so extraordinary?
I’ll be honest — even in 2025, even this year, those thoughts still come to me. It’s like a temptation — this feeling of being tired of it all. Seriously. And you know, there’s such an interesting paradox. Back in 2010 and 2011, when I was writing my first books, I was craving to be part of society, I dreamed of being a human being, I wanted to become one so badly — and I didn’t know how to silence myself, how to shut down, how to tie myself to people. I was ready to get into a relationship with the first person I met, take any job — just to become a human. Because I was so deeply in the Spirit, in the “corridor,” it was overwhelming. And I didn’t like it at all, because I could see the human world and I wanted to be part of it — but nothing worked. I remained this ghost in the “corridor,” like some otherworldly alien, like that boy in the movie Powder, or like the angel in City of Angels. I just wanted to enter the human world, but I couldn’t. And then the paradox came: the system, society, the Spirit, God — they shoved me into the human world starting from mid-2011, for nearly ten years — they pushed me deep into that human, social-material world. And now it was the opposite: