Alexandr Korol

Another thought came to me — and it was the same in a dream today — that as if I’m creating geometric shapes, and they... For example, there are triangles pointing downward, but they should also be pointing upward, and it’s as if I must come to know some kind of opposite force. And I started to see this everywhere, imagining it in all films — that there’s always an opposing force. That it’s exactly like a magnet, plus and minus, just like in the movie “Powder,” where it’s said that electricity consists of two parts — plus and minus. And I thought, as if I’ve found the plus, and the minus I still need to understand, that it’s the same thing but inverted, and I just can’t grasp it yet, and I’m trying to understand.
Another one of the most recent discoveries, I think, was something Big Alexander also pointed out to me — that since New Year’s, when I was hit with a million provocations, he said I had to pass through Mara, like the Buddha did, and that I had to become completely non-reactive to anything, to any injustice. And the thing is, there were a million setups in just a week, and I didn’t feel anything! It was like I was going even deeper into that inner state, as if I were completely neutral, as if no matter what happens — this was something I felt before, in 2010–2011 — and now it came back again, like no matter what happens, I’ll just keep staring into one spot and that’s it. And people are really doing nasty things, over and over, and I can’t react anymore — something inside me switched because of the matrix. And I told Big Alexander about this, and he started congratulating me. He said:

— Finally, amazing, you’re almost ready to pass the final trial, the last step, which is the hardest and which no one ever passes.