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Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2025 4:52 pm
moral purity, renunciation ability, intuitive wisdom, self-sacrifice, patience, truthfulness, determination, love for all beings, and equanimity. After this, the god of Evil and Death retreated, bowing his rebellious head before the Victor.”
So, guys, here’s the thing. Right now, at this very moment, evil spirits are attacking me. But as you can see, strangely, I’m actually... What’s surprising is that maybe because now I can calmly write about this, maybe something has really happened to me, and maybe I’m... I wouldn’t say I’ve fully won yet — it can’t be that I don’t notice myself becoming enlightened. No, but I just feel that I am already many, many times stronger. Here’s the paradox: every day I grow stronger inside, from every attack. It’s like, they attack me, but instead I fall into a kind of shock, like I’m losing my mind, with a ringing in my ears, no thoughts. I just sit like a doll, staring at one point, and they tell me there’s some emergency, some disaster, and I just say “okay.” Before, I would have reacted, but now I can’t react — though it still bothers me, but not like before. I know this path is still ongoing. From what I understand, the fifth volume was fully devoted to the God of Death and the world of death, what that means on different levels. And the eighth volume — that’s what comes after death, where I’m now transitioning. So about 30% of the eighth volume will still cover the theme of death, the story from the fifth volume continuing. But the eighth volume is mostly about awakening, when I finally overcome the Spirit of Death, and after that — awakening itself.
So, guys, here’s the thing. Right now, at this very moment, evil spirits are attacking me. But as you can see, strangely, I’m actually... What’s surprising is that maybe because now I can calmly write about this, maybe something has really happened to me, and maybe I’m... I wouldn’t say I’ve fully won yet — it can’t be that I don’t notice myself becoming enlightened. No, but I just feel that I am already many, many times stronger. Here’s the paradox: every day I grow stronger inside, from every attack. It’s like, they attack me, but instead I fall into a kind of shock, like I’m losing my mind, with a ringing in my ears, no thoughts. I just sit like a doll, staring at one point, and they tell me there’s some emergency, some disaster, and I just say “okay.” Before, I would have reacted, but now I can’t react — though it still bothers me, but not like before. I know this path is still ongoing. From what I understand, the fifth volume was fully devoted to the God of Death and the world of death, what that means on different levels. And the eighth volume — that’s what comes after death, where I’m now transitioning. So about 30% of the eighth volume will still cover the theme of death, the story from the fifth volume continuing. But the eighth volume is mostly about awakening, when I finally overcome the Spirit of Death, and after that — awakening itself.