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Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2025 5:13 pm
And you know what it reminded me of? How I came to understand how the matrix is constructed. Because the last thing I reached with the matrix was that if you draw one dodecahedron on a cube, and then a second one the same way, then we can form — then these two dodecahedrons on the cube define a path for this cube, how it is unfolded. And it unfolds exactly like a pine cone, like those seeds in a spiral. As if there is a cube, but it’s blurred, as if it’s unfolded — and these are the worlds. And what was also curious, when I read about the temptation of Jesus, it’s interesting how it’s all connected, that it turns out to be the same as with Buddha and Mara, the exact same story. And what does this evil Spirit do? He implants thoughts into people, turns all people, relatives, acquaintances — everyone — against the victim, meaning against me, against the one who is meant to awaken in the future. And the one who is supposed to awaken starts hallucinating everything possible and impossible, like in movies, like in nightmares — and I’m seeing all of it. And I even told a friend about this today. He asked me:
— Alex, are you sure you’re not taking any drugs?
— Are you crazy or something? Drugs? I’m afraid to eat too much so I don’t close my heart. Are you totally out of your mind?
— You’re weird.
Well of course I’m weird, how could I not be. You have no idea where I am right now. You think the world is the same for everyone, that we’re all the same — but you have no idea, I’ve been plunged straight into a nightmare, like I’ve been bewitched or something, but I’m holding on. And I absolutely must describe this path in the eighth volume, because everyone will go through this path — especially when someone reads the book. Because my book, “Alternative History,” is like the game Jumanji — when you start reading it, any volume, the game begins. And like in the game Jumanji, you can’t quit, even if it’s unpleasant. To get out of it, you have to finish it — you have to complete it.
And it turns out that whoever opens, let’s say, the eighth volume — or the fifth, or the eighth — and ends up in Mara, the only way out is to finish the book and, by following me, through my story, along this path, to exit the same way I will exit this Mara. But I’m still searching for the way out.
— Alex, are you sure you’re not taking any drugs?
— Are you crazy or something? Drugs? I’m afraid to eat too much so I don’t close my heart. Are you totally out of your mind?
— You’re weird.
Well of course I’m weird, how could I not be. You have no idea where I am right now. You think the world is the same for everyone, that we’re all the same — but you have no idea, I’ve been plunged straight into a nightmare, like I’ve been bewitched or something, but I’m holding on. And I absolutely must describe this path in the eighth volume, because everyone will go through this path — especially when someone reads the book. Because my book, “Alternative History,” is like the game Jumanji — when you start reading it, any volume, the game begins. And like in the game Jumanji, you can’t quit, even if it’s unpleasant. To get out of it, you have to finish it — you have to complete it.
And it turns out that whoever opens, let’s say, the eighth volume — or the fifth, or the eighth — and ends up in Mara, the only way out is to finish the book and, by following me, through my story, along this path, to exit the same way I will exit this Mara. But I’m still searching for the way out.