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meditating and doing everything possible to connect with spirituality. When I am running from it from my childhood and don’t know where to hide. I could’ve had five whiskey cola drinks and can’t get drunk. Because you can’t control the Holy Spirit. It is like a super consciousness. I was trying to do everything in my attempts to be a regular person. Didn’t know what to do with myself – got a lot of tattoos, learned how to curse. Because I was too kind and too good so people were shying away from me. I was trying to do anything to fit into society and be like everyone else. But as they say you can’t run away from destiny.
Another thing that the Holy Spirit pointed my attention on are the “fruits of the Holy Spirit”. You may also read Wikipedia about it. These are the moral qualities of a person. Base foundation on how to live. Some people are living by the sins, I am living by the “fruits”. They are inside of me and people wouldn’t get it.
I used to be in a relationship with a woman and her mom asked me:
– Alex, I don’t understand your upbringing. How are you so well-mannered? Was it your parents who taught you this?
– No.
– How do you know everything? You have such a good character.
– I don’t know. It is inside of me and I am trying to get rid of it.
– Why?
– Because people don’t appreciate it. They attack and hurt me because of that. They get frightened and annoyed. As if I were dirty, stupid and shallow I would get a break from them.
Sinful people who feel it in you want to destroy you. Please read carefully about the fruits of the Holy Spirit. This is a foundational information about how I live and what my rules are. Specifically check what is “gentleness”, read Wikipedia about this word. This is a very important rule. It is like an instruction, like a user manual, you see. On how to handle me. Also it will be interesting for you to read what visual appearances of the Holy Spirit are, how He shows up. It will be enough for you for now. Take a break for a couple of days and then come back to this book.
Another thing that the Holy Spirit pointed my attention on are the “fruits of the Holy Spirit”. You may also read Wikipedia about it. These are the moral qualities of a person. Base foundation on how to live. Some people are living by the sins, I am living by the “fruits”. They are inside of me and people wouldn’t get it.
I used to be in a relationship with a woman and her mom asked me:
– Alex, I don’t understand your upbringing. How are you so well-mannered? Was it your parents who taught you this?
– No.
– How do you know everything? You have such a good character.
– I don’t know. It is inside of me and I am trying to get rid of it.
– Why?
– Because people don’t appreciate it. They attack and hurt me because of that. They get frightened and annoyed. As if I were dirty, stupid and shallow I would get a break from them.
Sinful people who feel it in you want to destroy you. Please read carefully about the fruits of the Holy Spirit. This is a foundational information about how I live and what my rules are. Specifically check what is “gentleness”, read Wikipedia about this word. This is a very important rule. It is like an instruction, like a user manual, you see. On how to handle me. Also it will be interesting for you to read what visual appearances of the Holy Spirit are, how He shows up. It will be enough for you for now. Take a break for a couple of days and then come back to this book.