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Posted: Sat Sep 23, 2023 8:56 am
everything possible. Surround myself with society, with errands, everything to be around people and be closed. To be in society. But I know if I let myself go now, if I get rid of the control of my mind and stop closing myself, then a five percent of my mind, that is “Alex, the human”, a give percent of me, my memory and control will be gone and I will become completely “without mind” as I call it. And it is scary for me to become without mind because I won’t be able to work and I won’t remember what was yesterday and won’t be able to plan for tomorrow because I will only know the here and now.
I described to him this condition that I had since my childhood and that I was doing everything possible to be like other people. In order to have memory, sense of time, concentration, all of that. And I told him:
– Now there is a pandemic and I have my Karelia property. I have my employees and I can stay away from any domestics and don’t get distracted. I set up my environment that I can let go of control and completely be without mind.
– Too early. There are still important material things you need to do. You need to keep building what you are building in Karelia and keep writing your books.
He specifically told me that I have to release my books in English. And now I am not asking him anymore. It is happening naturally. Now it is the time I was waiting for. Time when I will not close myself anymore and I will be out of the vibrations of society. I knew what items, actions and things can ground me, turn my light bulbs off and “descend” to people. But now I am getting rid of all the ballast and as an air balloon I am going up above.
Going back to the topic of the food. I am asking the Spirit about the food and what kind of nutrition is muffling me. Because through the ten years a lot of earthy beliefs were implied on me. He said that many people say that eating bread is bad and this is a trap. People who don’t eat bread and eat fruits and vegetables or some other foods on an empty stomach, disturb their stomachs. As if bread has some important protective function. It is important to eat bread. And as if each time you eat something you need to eat bread. This is very important. That is why I don’t have any stomach dysfunctions and heartburns because I ate bread.
I described to him this condition that I had since my childhood and that I was doing everything possible to be like other people. In order to have memory, sense of time, concentration, all of that. And I told him:
– Now there is a pandemic and I have my Karelia property. I have my employees and I can stay away from any domestics and don’t get distracted. I set up my environment that I can let go of control and completely be without mind.
– Too early. There are still important material things you need to do. You need to keep building what you are building in Karelia and keep writing your books.
He specifically told me that I have to release my books in English. And now I am not asking him anymore. It is happening naturally. Now it is the time I was waiting for. Time when I will not close myself anymore and I will be out of the vibrations of society. I knew what items, actions and things can ground me, turn my light bulbs off and “descend” to people. But now I am getting rid of all the ballast and as an air balloon I am going up above.
Going back to the topic of the food. I am asking the Spirit about the food and what kind of nutrition is muffling me. Because through the ten years a lot of earthy beliefs were implied on me. He said that many people say that eating bread is bad and this is a trap. People who don’t eat bread and eat fruits and vegetables or some other foods on an empty stomach, disturb their stomachs. As if bread has some important protective function. It is important to eat bread. And as if each time you eat something you need to eat bread. This is very important. That is why I don’t have any stomach dysfunctions and heartburns because I ate bread.