Page 928
Posted: Sun Jul 13, 2025 6:01 pm
are even deeper in Mara and don’t hear what I’m explaining. Imagine that? It’s a nightmare! A nightmare! So this Mara, who confuses everyone around me, turns them against friends or me, or makes them slow down in their work, distracted by illusions — that happens every day. But she doesn’t confuse me. So, looking back at the last month — March — I didn’t have a single negative feeling or mood. No doubts about myself, no mistakes, no feeling that life is bad, no failures, no grievances against people — nothing like that. Everything is good. I just watch everyone else losing their minds, and honestly, I’m like... “Enough already,” with a smile. Like kids who stick their finger in an outlet or somewhere else they shouldn’t, then wipe it on their face and now smell like poop — that’s how it looks. I watch all this, I wash and cleanse everyone, but they keep digging into something else. Then someone touched someone, someone looked at someone wrong, but really was just staring out the window, and the other thought it was directed at them, got offended, and decided not to work today — that’s what happens every day. Yes, that’s Mara with people. So Mara is just as she always was. How do I fight her — or do I? Not at all. She actually helps me. It’s like a practice, and she gives me the opportunity, she teaches me not to react. The more Mara stirs up, the more, paradoxically, I stop noticing her. At first, she was very intense, because it felt like she wasn’t there before and suddenly appeared out of nowhere. But now that she’s become everyday, I’ve almost stopped noticing her — I don’t see her anymore. I don’t discuss anyone’s glitches with others. Before, if someone suddenly got caught in her spell and lost it, I could tell friends, “Imagine, today Petya went crazy and bit my leg.” Now I don’t even tell anyone because I’m used to people licking floors, biting legs, fearing walls — I’m used to everyone being crazy. So I just don’t get distracted, I make books, work on the seventh and eighth volumes, build the matrix, drink some tea — and everything’s fine. That’s my conclusion today, April 3, 2025.
Now I want to record April 6, 2025. Today I talked with Big Alexander, and I want to note this in the eighth volume. What did we discuss? He asked me how my mood and state were. I said my mood was great — everyone else is confused except me; my mood is good, no fluctuations, my thoughts are pure,
Now I want to record April 6, 2025. Today I talked with Big Alexander, and I want to note this in the eighth volume. What did we discuss? He asked me how my mood and state were. I said my mood was great — everyone else is confused except me; my mood is good, no fluctuations, my thoughts are pure,