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Posted: Sun Jul 13, 2025 6:02 pm
And so we began discussing how I understood the card that he had been hinting at throughout the year — the Tarot card. He kept telling me all year about the card The Hermit, and I am the Hermit leading people with a lantern. When I started looking through many of these cards, I had already emphasized this before, but here’s the conclusion again. It turns out that besides seeing the Hermit, I noticed that in his lantern there is a star, which I am deciphering in the eighth volume. Also, I began to see that he has Cerberus, the dog, on a chain. And Big Alexander says about this:
— That’s right. You have tamed this dark force. How can you govern the world without taming this dark force? And you have learned all this, walked this path. No one escapes this underworld, but you did.
— I feel like I’m not just out, but I’m actually coming out right now.
— Yes, yes, yes, it’s happening right now.
And he tells me that on April 13th I’ll feel even stronger, and on the 19th even more so. Now it’s April 18th. Did I feel more inspired and happy after talking with Big Alexander? Yes. With each day, it’s like my love for people, for everyone, grows more and more. It’s like a kind of crazy gratitude toward everyone, warmth toward all people. Very unusual. So, this journey through the underworld and Mara, where does it ultimately lead me? To becoming like this.
What else? Well, I started noticing that truly, while I was under Mara’s influence — or rather, when I was in the underworld, so to speak — your preferences in films, music, clothes, and everything else are completely different. I noticed that all this time, while I was in the underworld, I couldn’t listen to my favorite music, like the band Angus & Julia Stone or Jose Gonzalez — the soundtracks from the movie “The Secret Life of Walter Mitty.” But now I’ve started listening to that kind of travel, American folk music and similar, and it resonates so strongly. I immediately wanted to watch those kinds of films and swap my black clothes for something light. Different people, interestingly enough, started appearing in my mind — completely different. That’s how the exit from Mara happens. What else? Well, I understood how exactly I defeated her and passed through her —
— That’s right. You have tamed this dark force. How can you govern the world without taming this dark force? And you have learned all this, walked this path. No one escapes this underworld, but you did.
— I feel like I’m not just out, but I’m actually coming out right now.
— Yes, yes, yes, it’s happening right now.
And he tells me that on April 13th I’ll feel even stronger, and on the 19th even more so. Now it’s April 18th. Did I feel more inspired and happy after talking with Big Alexander? Yes. With each day, it’s like my love for people, for everyone, grows more and more. It’s like a kind of crazy gratitude toward everyone, warmth toward all people. Very unusual. So, this journey through the underworld and Mara, where does it ultimately lead me? To becoming like this.
What else? Well, I started noticing that truly, while I was under Mara’s influence — or rather, when I was in the underworld, so to speak — your preferences in films, music, clothes, and everything else are completely different. I noticed that all this time, while I was in the underworld, I couldn’t listen to my favorite music, like the band Angus & Julia Stone or Jose Gonzalez — the soundtracks from the movie “The Secret Life of Walter Mitty.” But now I’ve started listening to that kind of travel, American folk music and similar, and it resonates so strongly. I immediately wanted to watch those kinds of films and swap my black clothes for something light. Different people, interestingly enough, started appearing in my mind — completely different. That’s how the exit from Mara happens. What else? Well, I understood how exactly I defeated her and passed through her —