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[Alexandr Korol]

But before, when you were in the underworld, whatever you wanted, you’d think, “Hmm... I don’t trust my feelings, I don’t trust my thoughts. This is from the deceiver,” it was like that before. But now you can relax a bit, lower your defenses, ease that vigilance that was there. Of course, it still needs to be there — that state of alertness and watchfulness — but not as intensely as it was in the underworld. That’s how I feel now. I feel my head feels different, my body feels different. And now I want to surround myself with kindness.
I am now completely sure that I am disconnected from the underworld and connected to the light. And now I will, like I did in childhood, create a “snapshot,” just for myself. And this snapshot will consist of what? I will look at every shelf, every cabinet, every console, every cupboard with things, and everything that resonates with my heart, that makes my heart ignite like a fire inside, I will keep as a selection — what I’ve chosen that belongs to this world. And just like that, I will collect music, films, and people who come to mind. Already two, unusually, two people. I remembered one I haven’t communicated with for 10 years, and another for more than 15 years. It turned out, imagine, they... When I came out of the underworld into this kindness, suddenly these people, imagine, appeared in my thoughts, in my mind, as if they exist in this world where I now am. And I want to get in touch with them. But I wouldn’t say that I need to go to such extremes. So even when I want to go into the somber, “nameless,” into the otherworldly ether, into all that, I’ll put on my black hoodie shirt, wear some amethyst pendant or rings, and play some Fever Ray music from the years when she had that shamanic playlist, or watch a series like “Taboo.” Why not? All these worlds still remain. It’s just that one becomes the priority, and the others sort of fade to the background. That’s how it works. So it doesn’t mean that if I suddenly catch myself liking all things surfer, skater, and travel-related, and wanting to take photos, it means that all the other worlds don’t exist. No, that’s not true. When needed, I switch to any rhythm depending on what I’m working on. Every day is still different: some days you feel it stronger, some days weaker, some days you feel a different world, even though you understand that a new cycle has begun now. That’s how it feels to me. The perception of everything is completely different.