Alexandr Korol

And glasses — round, oval, semi-oval — Hackett. And how would today’s youth, in a society that has fallen into chaos, into oversized everything, into darkness, perceive a guy in such glasses, in such a shirt, and in such pants? Well, they would think “he’s a nerd”. Maybe, if the shirt is Burberry, they might latch onto that and think, “At least he’s not poor, but strange, unfashionable, has no taste, probably lives with his parents,” and that “it’s shameful to become like him, to be seen with him” — that’s what those sinful, vain people would think. But the paradox is something else: when you look like that, you are protected from all evil people, from all devils. And you are also noticed by the same kind of ordinary, sincere people, if you are modest and unassuming. That’s how it is. But what else is curious? How did I live back then? I used to say that I needed to change location every two months so that I wouldn’t get attached to anything. Otherwise, it’s as if the aging mode switches on immediately — I start to age, like other people. The time of people begins, the world of people, and I begin to feel the countdown in which people live — can you imagine? And what I need is for nothing to become blurred, for clarity not to be lost, for there to be no autopilot — so that I am always in that 100% clear consciousness, as if I am fully here. It feels like I need to sense... maybe now this timing has changed, maybe two months would even be too much to wait, maybe a month would be enough, and then I would already need to change location so as not to become attached. And it’s as if one of the rules of this magical world I am now heading into — but which I was also in during my childhood — is no attachments. And I... seriously, I have goosebumps right now. In the next few days I’ll sit somewhere in a café or on a bench on the street and open my book that I’ve been writing my whole life — “The Three Paradoxes of the Creative Person” — and I will read everything I wrote there about this world, in order to return to it again and compare this difference. And what other rules did I have back then that I should now remember? I didn’t become attached to people. That is, I would meet someone, get acquainted with someone, and that was it. There was no such thing as us making some kind of plans for each other for the next day. No — done. I disappeared, and then appeared again a month later. But because I did this, it turns out I can now even explain scientifically