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and technically why it was done that way. Back then it was all done unconsciously, as if on autopilot, when God gave me the opportunity to be like this Spirit. And now I am returning to it again, but with mind and practice, so that now I can explain it all — how it works — in an adult way. And it turns out that when I, for example, meet with a person, talk with them for five hours about life and everything, but after that, without continuing any contact, disappear for a month, then there’s none of that drowning in each other or forming attachments or placing limitations. And as a result, I don’t end up in the world of people — meaning I remain this angel, remain this Spirit. And as soon as they forget me — I can almost feel it — just as they’ve forgotten me, those invisible claws they had, trying to characterize me, to understand me somehow, to put me into a template, when that wave toward me ends after our meeting, the moment I feel they’ve forgotten me, I immediately write to them, “Hi.” And the person asks me:
— How do you do that?
— What?
— You’ve already done this three times — appearing suddenly, disappearing suddenly — and I’m starting to think, do you even exist?
— Why make it so that I exist? Why? No need. You have your own world — live in it.
And I truly was, like a real angel-mystic, able to appear in someone’s life like that, and then disappear again for as much as half a year. I could appear again, then disappear again. But never, under any circumstances, any kind of friendly-crew connection where the next day you’re messaging each other, discussing something, planning weekends. No — I would immediately feel that when this started to happen, then — back in childhood, when I was just living by sensations — I understood that the countdown would start right away, as if I were becoming mortal. That’s how I described it back then, without realizing or even knowing whether immortality existed or what death was. I would say, “It’s as if I’m becoming mortal.” And you know, even though I said it without knowing what I was saying, I was still saying it exactly as it is.
— How do you do that?
— What?
— You’ve already done this three times — appearing suddenly, disappearing suddenly — and I’m starting to think, do you even exist?
— Why make it so that I exist? Why? No need. You have your own world — live in it.
And I truly was, like a real angel-mystic, able to appear in someone’s life like that, and then disappear again for as much as half a year. I could appear again, then disappear again. But never, under any circumstances, any kind of friendly-crew connection where the next day you’re messaging each other, discussing something, planning weekends. No — I would immediately feel that when this started to happen, then — back in childhood, when I was just living by sensations — I understood that the countdown would start right away, as if I were becoming mortal. That’s how I described it back then, without realizing or even knowing whether immortality existed or what death was. I would say, “It’s as if I’m becoming mortal.” And you know, even though I said it without knowing what I was saying, I was still saying it exactly as it is.