Alexandr Korol

say, at work, they would suddenly feel as if they were in a vacuum, their thoughts disappearing, fully absorbed in the story, as if they had lived it. And then, when they stopped reading, it was as if they woke up again, realizing they were at work, remembering they had even forgotten they were at work. Can you imagine? What is that? And now I am starting to remember all this, how it used to be — all those miracles. It’s good that Big Alexander once told me, “Write everything down, keep a diary, record all your sensations, all your thoughts, it will be useful to you in the future.” Now I understand what it was for — why I kept that diary, which I later made into a book called “The Three Paradoxes of the Creative Person.” Now I need to see in it that magical version of myself, and that will give me memories, and those memories will awaken me now, switch me into it, and I will return to that magical world. Why was I already in it before, when I was young, and then thrown, along with everyone else, into the meat grinder of some kind of society — to put it bluntly in one word — and now I’m climbing back out again into paradise, which, in fact, I had already been in as a child? Why? Well... a long time ago, about 10 years ago, I had a thought about this. I said: imagine there is a sphere, like our world, and it’s as if spiritual people are beneath the sphere — they are sensitive, naive, but foolish and have no life experience at all, because they’re afraid to go into this little sphere, because that’s society. And then, I said, there are spiritual people above the sphere — they have gone through this society, come out of it again, but now they are above it. And they have experience, and knowledge, and understanding of the entire social-material world, and therefore of all worlds in general, but at the same time they are once again beyond the boundaries of this samsara. This is how I see my path — why, for what purpose, and through what I went, and what I am now returning to again.