Alexandr Korol

“Don’t call it ‘into nowhere,’ because ‘into nowhere’ is where all those lost bad people go, you know that yourself. You, on the contrary, are going home, to yourself.” But the point is that when I described what this magical world was — the one I came from when I was little — I came from that magical world, the same one I am now returning to. And with each month, with each year, I lost my connection to that world and sank deeper and deeper into the world of people. And before I completely forgot it, I managed to describe it in my drafts and in my diary, in my book “Paradox.” And now I am remembering it all and returning to it. And for now, deliberately, purely on principle — because I need to develop my memory — and I am categorically against any lazy methods of development, I am, on the contrary, for effort and love difficult paths. And I am deliberately forbidding myself right now from taking all those childhood notes, because with them it’s clear that I would remember everything quickly — but the goal is not to remember quickly, we are in no hurry. The goal, first and foremost, is to remember now by myself, without any prompting. And so my task now is to remember every day without prompts, for the time being — what magical things I saw back then, what rules I lived by when I was in that paradise I later lost. Again, I didn’t lose it because it was lost, or because I lost it — I’m just using that expression. But the point is that Big Alexander corrects me, saying you can’t put it that way, because it’s actually completely different. Alright, not lost — there was a magical world and there was a magical me, and then came a time when I needed to leave that magical world and go through other worlds, to travel everywhere, draw certain conclusions, and return back — but now as an adult. I am now completing that path in the near future. And as I approach completion, I am making and will continue to make certain conclusions, based on this, on that, on the other. And I need now to remember what magical things I described back then, what magical things happened to me back then. I was writing a draft book at the time, and I called it “Another World.” But later all of those notes went into my main book — “The Three Paradoxes of the Creative Person.” And I want, right now, to remember everything on my own, without any prompts.