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[Alexandr Korol]

and that you don’t need to go there, and that our journey, which began long ago — and into which you also entered because of me — is finally coming to an end. Phew. We’re going home.

Also, remembering myself back then, earlier, I recall that I slept only two hours, I couldn’t sleep more. In the good sense of the word — that is, it didn’t bother me at all. And also... as I already mentioned earlier, I also didn’t eat. So I neither ate nor slept — just like that, by itself. This isn’t something to do deliberately — I’m simply saying that if something like this begins to happen to a person on its own, it isn’t a bad thing. And now it is happening to me again — I’m not doing it deliberately, but I don’t sleep at all and I don’t eat at all. Well, just a tiny bit. In three days I ate one sandwich, not even candies. And you know how many people say, “Well, if you eat a candy, it doesn’t count”? No — I count everything, and I didn’t eat even candies. The clarity is so strong that I can sit at a table for 10 hours without moving and listen to classical music, and not once does a thought appear that I’m bored, that I’m tired, that I remembered something, or that I start thinking about something that distracts me. No. It’s just me and the music, and that’s all — for 10 hours straight. And now, of course, I want to say that this new thing I am coming into again, this state — what can we call it? We can call it this: I am becoming the Spirit. And just as I used to give hints in my books — that the world itself becomes Spirit. What difference does it make? I became the Spirit and the world changed, or I entered the world and changed because of it. In essence, it all happens at once. Together with you, people. And yes, I am now transitioning into this, but for now I believe I should not hurry — I should observe what is happening. I will choose a day, and I will try to decipher all of this, to describe it. But more importantly, I need now to place the focus on remembering that earlier version of myself. Or rather, not earlier — on the contrary, the younger me, how magical I was back then, even in childhood, I remember it.

And so I remember that if I met someone, then if his leg hurt, my leg would hurt. If his stomach hurt, my stomach would hurt. If he was walking down the street and distracted by the noise of cars, then suddenly I would begin