Alexandr Korol

you have no thoughts, no feelings, nothing, you are zero. And when you are with any person and even just think of them, you gain this super-ability: you begin to feel like them, think like them, because you start to synchronize with their world, the one they live in, and that’s it — you become them. But do you know who this function is given to, who has such an ability? An angel. Angels, who govern everything, who watch over everyone, look after them, help them. They are the ones who live in this magical world. And they are sexless, that is, undefined. They are the ones with wings, because they are not attached to anything. Why do they fly? Not physically flying — this is all sacred meaning, that they all have halos, a connection. Angels. And so an angel lives in this world, and if he suddenly meets a person, he can fully describe, tell everything, the whole life of this person from beginning to end, all his feelings, thoughts, desires. That’s what used to happen when I was little, and some people interacted with me, and they were shocked how I knew everything about them. But it was because I became them — just became them — because I was nobody, nothing, “zero.” And because you are nothing, if you are with a person, if his heart hurts, your heart begins to hurt. If he has greed, you feel greed. If he is frightened, you become frightened. If he is cowardly, you become cowardly. If he is irritable, you become irritable. But you feel this inside, you can control it and not act on it, but you understand that all these feelings are not yours, but your companion’s. For this reason I could not stay long with people, because I felt their bad thoughts, their bad feelings, all these illusions, the sicknesses. I wasn’t worried for myself, it was just uncomfortable. It’s like a busy phone line — when one person makes that noise and I feel him, I have this empathy, then I stop feeling others, because the connection line is taken up by him. That’s why I always needed to disconnect from everyone, so that everyone disconnected from me, so I could return again to the world of magic — more precisely, remain in it — but so I could feel everything, without noise, without these foreign feelings of people. That’s how it works. And also interesting is that when you are not in this world of magic, not when you are zero, but when you are in any other world, then you have no ability to feel people. Because how can you feel them if you are already limited by your own world? You can no longer see other worlds