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[Alexandr Korol]

Chapter 8. Behavior in the World of Heaven

I’ll try to share all my observations from the past week of my journeys. The first is that I’ve entered the world of heaven — or, let’s say, I’m entering it, transitioning, the process is happening right now. It’s the world of heaven. And one of the most key, first observations — something I can really emphasize — is that I cannot use my phone at all. It’s very difficult for me to write anything down in my notes, or to reply to messages, whether to friends, family, or colleagues. But I want you to understand correctly what I mean. It’s not that I can’t because something is wrong — it’s more like, you know, when you’re so completely absorbed in something. For example, when you’re building a raft to set out on, or when you’re playing ball in the yard, really caught up in the game. Or when you’re out fishing from a boat, so deeply immersed in it. And then, when a phone message comes in at that moment, it’s almost impossible to focus — you just can’t bring yourself to take out the phone and get into it. You can reply, but it feels like you’re doing it on autopilot, without really engaging. Because your attention is somewhere else — so strongly fixed on something else. And I can reply, but it feels as if it’s not me doing it — it’s some kind of autopilot — and I’m not really engaging, I can’t even manage to. It’s as if I have to really strain, ground myself, switch on my head, switch on some kind of evaluative, analytical thinking process in order to focus on something human that someone has written to me, just to answer them. That’s how it feels. But instead, it’s as if you’re in a world of feelings — that’s probably how I’d put it — a world of feelings, rather than some kind of tense, meaning-heavy analysis. That’s what it’s like. And over the course of this week, all this time, I simply couldn’t get a grip on myself enough to write even a single chapter — even just to mark it down with three lines in the notes on my phone. Can you imagine? How fascinating that is.

And the feeling of illumination, of awareness — those moments of discovery — I experienced them almost every single day. And it’s as if, you know, when a person is so deeply moved, they might forget to take a picture, or record a video, or even make a note in text or audio, simply because