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[Alexandr Korol]

pressing, pressing. But again, it was all meant to be, what happened then, it had to happen. That is, I would even say differently, I should have agreed faster and not resisted, maybe then this journey into the world of people would have ended sooner. But it was as if I was deliberately being shoved into the world of people. By whom? By the Gods, by the system itself, intentionally. And so in 2011 I built my first relationship, got a dog, officially got a job, cut my hair, changed clothes, began forcing myself to enter the world of people, into all of this, that is how it was. I descended, as they say, from heaven to earth. And still it happened not abruptly, but gradually. Gradually the magic faded, gradually thoughts and judgment began to appear. And in one sense it was even good. Why? Because I could first of all do what? Gather my thoughts and my mind, analyze and evaluate everything I had felt before, because I had lived without the mind in the world of heaven, and here I could somehow record it.

And that was when I began to record all of it and to write books about it. I will even say this: I would never have been able to write all these books if I had not gone into the world of people. So it had to be, it was necessary. And when I was still in the world of heaven in 2011, it was an incredibly magical world, but I always said that I was as if alone in it. I even remember such a moment, returning now again to the essence of what I want to convey now, that one must not become attached – that is the point. I remember that earlier, when I met someone, when I was that magical boy, as Valentina called me “the golden child,” when I was like that, if I met a person, then as long as he did not evaluate me and I did not evaluate him, everything was magical. But as soon as I suddenly began to notice how he started to evaluate me with the mind, to try to somehow understand or become attached, I immediately disappeared. And also everyone always wanted to make some kind of plans, and I could never promise that, but I still treated everything very responsibly. And when some friend could say to me:

— In 10 years we will...
— Wait, who even knows what will happen in 10 years?- I would answer.
— Why? Don’t you want this?