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[Alexandr Korol]

— Come on, — as if he wants to push me into a frame,- just say for sure, Friday at eight?
— You better make your plans, and just ask me on Friday two hours in advance, if I say yes, then yes, if no, then no. Or maybe I won’t answer at all.

This is another interesting thing in the world of heaven – there are no attachments. I remember that when I lived in this world of heaven, when I was still small, if I liked a girl and wanted to build a relationship with her, she could not believe in me and choose me and the world of heaven, because she held on very strongly with her mind to the world of people. To the point that she could not go with me today to the park “without the mind,” because she had a meeting with her friend in two hours. And she could not cancel all that for the sake of love, like in childhood, like in movies, like in music. There are songs that describe the feeling of love when you are literally “out of your mind,” in the good sense of the word, not in the sinful dark underworld, but in the bright one – this is also a very important point, people confuse this. And I remember that these attachments, these anchors, they made people earthly. And everyone held on to all these human needs. And no one could choose paradise, no one could choose heaven, no one could choose me, and even if they did, it would not last beyond that very day only because the person would say they had things to do that evening and plans. And in this world of heaven back then in childhood I felt incredibly happy. Crazy magic, kindness, love, everything magical. But all temporary and all without attachments, and that did not bother you, which is very important. That is, when you are in the world of heaven – I remember myself back then in childhood – you are not afraid that you don’t have your own apartment, you are not afraid that you don’t have some serious job, you are not afraid of where you will live in a month, you are not afraid that you don’t have a relationship. You don’t have such thoughts at all and at the same time you are happy and in magic. But naturally, once you connect with people who begin to pressure you and impose on you the angle of perception of the world in which they live, they begin to sow doubt in you, and doubt is the world of people. And it is as if there are two worlds: the world of faith and the world of doubt.