Alexandr Korol

The world of faith is the world of heaven, and the world of doubt is the opposite world. And the world of doubt, the world of sickness, the world of people – there they tell you you are old, or you urgently need to give birth, or you must have a car, an apartment. You always must, must, and since you don’t have it, look, they have it and you don’t, it means you are bad. And you begin to believe in this, in this lie, in this imposed terrible illusion. It is the illusion of fear. As if people who live in doubt live entirely in a world of fear. And they impose it on you, impose it, impose it. No, of course, it is wonderful when a person has higher education. It is wonderful when a person has a job, a family, parents, an apartment, a house. But it is wonderful when it is not from fear. Do you understand? In the world of heaven all this can exist, but it must not come from the mind and fear, it must come from the feeling of the heart – these are different things. And I remember earlier, when I was in the world of heaven, I recorded that moment, it was 2011, the beginning of summer, the end of spring, around that same period of time when this happened, I remember how suddenly all friends and relatives began to write and call me, saying: Alex, you don’t have a personal life, you don’t have a job, you don’t have an apartment, you don’t have an education, why did you drop out of the institute. And I said: I am happy. I don’t need anything. I just want, like artists before or musicians, I just want to write books. And I don’t need anything else. Headphones, to listen to music, a sheet of paper, to draw – that’s all. Why do I need money, achievements? Whom do I have to prove something to? Why? I am happy. And everyone in different ways tried to find a way to convince me otherwise. Some relatives said that later I would grow up and crawl onto their necks, because I would have no housing, nothing, I would fall on their necks later. Others told me I would lose time, the chance to find myself, to decide on a career, or something else, or something else. They said everything possible. And also about appearance, everyone condemned me, saying I did not look right. Although believe me, compared to how people look now, the youth, I looked like a dandelion boy, but still at that time there was a lot of condemnation. All of it fell on me as if suddenly in one week, just like that – bang! Like a snowball in 2011. And I so wanted everyone to leave me alone, but everyone kept pressing,