Alexandr Korol

Valentina told me: “Now all this happened not for nothing. You still have not decided where you are: in your ‘cosmos,’ in the spiritual world, or in the material one.” And I said: “I have decided, there is nothing higher and better than the spiritual world.” But I said this, why? Because at that moment I was in the spiritual world, after the meat grinder of the material world, I was in the spiritual world. Naturally, I said that the spiritual world is higher than everything, and I am ready to give up everything for it. Naturally, I said so. But when you become material in the material world, you no longer think that way. You no longer consider the material world bad, and the spiritual world something wow. It is as if it all gets blurred, forgotten, erased. And it feels as if, you know, now it is the same again. As if now it is an exam, although Big Alexander does not tell me about it. And as if there was this purgatory, the meat grinder, the underworld, death, the “corridor,” all of this, all of it. And as if now I have ended up or am ending up, or in some interval of this paradise, maybe I am in some “corridor” between the spiritual and the material world. That is, here too there are different levels. That is, they are in the spiritual world, not in the world of the sun, where there are many worlds: heaven, earth, the underworld; not in the world of the moon, where there are also many worlds. But I am as if above these sun and moon, above these two great spheres, worlds, like “mother” and “father.” And I am as if in such a “corridor,” but at the same time as if in the spiritual world. Well, as if it is loading for me, but at the same time as if the material is also loading, which also says: “Alex, and maybe you will come out into people?” That is, as if such a thing is happening now. And I understand that, seriously, this is such a fine line. Suddenly I think that since everything is good and there is no longer any danger, any trials, well, I will go now and meet all my friends, right? Or I will go now and build a personal life, as I dreamed, because I always wanted a bunch of kids and a family. Or I will go now, appear on social networks, and answer readers’ questions. For they probably have so many questions after reading my novel “Alternative History.” And the point is that such thoughts may now appear in me, and I may think: “And what is bad in this? After all, this is not one of the seven sins, right? What is bad about this? After all, I am not doing anything bad.” But in reality this is already a choice. And this is the choice already as the choice