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[Alexandr Korol]

world, the encoding there is simply different. That is, within the framework of society any idea already exists in the world of people, and it is within the framework of society. And all people think within the framework of society. But when you step outside the framework of society, then you think in a way that no one in society would ever think. And therefore, if I devise just some algorithm from the world “without mind” and give this code to a person, then by coming into contact with this code, the person disconnects for a time from the world of people. And so I did such things precisely. I am remembering all this now, I had it all in childhood, I remember that at 21–22, 23 years old, I could just be at home, like everyone else I was in relationships, I had pets, a sort of social life. And I could just leave the house, simply go into nowhere, and if I went into nowhere like that, not somewhere according to plan, like I go to the park and I have two hours for it and in two hours I will return, but simply into nowhere without mind. And if I did this, that I walked by feelings, turning left, turning right as I felt, then because of this I immediately entered that magical world. Then I might sit somewhere in a café or sit in some public transport or in a taxi, and while I was still in that state, I would write a chapter. And that is how I wrote the book “Paradox.” I described a lot about the world of heaven even then, in childhood, in youth. I remember that I wrote about this world of heaven — I called it differently then — I said, let’s imagine it is the world of angels. And there are people who live in this world, and there are rules for how to live in this world. And those angels who do not know these rules and try to live like people suffer because of it. And I remember that when I was in this world of heaven long ago, if I suddenly saw someone from this world, I would tell him all these rules. And he would be shocked, because I described all his feelings. I told him:

— You are alone and happy, but at the same time you want a family. You begin to build a relationship, but after that you feel as if a countdown has begun, as if you are about to die, as if everything has gone dark, and you immediately want to destroy this relationship, even though the person is not bad, but as if the whole fairy tale has vanished. — And the person looks at me with wide eyes and doesn’t understand how I can know this,