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because he never told it to anyone. — Because I am the same. I don’t understand who I am either, I have been writing books about it since childhood, always trying to figure it out. — And the person with wide eyes and an open mouth just looks at me, naturally not understanding at all what is happening. And I go on telling him who he is. — You cannot sit still in one place. Even if you get a job now, you will not be able to work in an office, in a system on a schedule. It is as if it suffocates you. You will even get sick.
— Yes, but money is necessary.
— I understand. Then you must somehow adapt, since you are like this.
And so I described this. And also I was asked, what about family? What about work? What about this? And then all these people from the world of heaven, these angels, they always had very interesting hobbies. Almost all of them collected something or were fascinated by something that was, so to speak, neither popular nor fashionable. And all such people from the world of heaven back then, long ago, complained to me that people judged them for the fact that, figuratively speaking, grown men were collecting some Japanese toys, gluing together some Transformers, and others laughed at them. Or another person also complained to me that this is what he liked to do, and people told him: “You’ll be poor all your life if you keep doing this.” And he stood before a choice, not understanding what to do: go work in a bank, in an office, somewhere, or not, although it would hurt his soul, his heart. This is all the world of heaven, the magical world of heaven.
I remember that... Well, when I was in the world of heaven, I communicated with people very cautiously. That is, no matter who I liked, I could feel, for example, true love for a girl, like in the movies, and under no circumstances let her come close to me. Because I understood that nothing would work out, because I was not a human — that’s how I called myself, that’s what I said, back then, when I was still little. And likewise, I could talk with people and understood that I had some friends, but I also understood that they were all as if temporary, while they all wanted to make plans forever, and I could not support them in that. And already then it formed in me that I tried not to give people false hope and always warned everyone that I might
— Yes, but money is necessary.
— I understand. Then you must somehow adapt, since you are like this.
And so I described this. And also I was asked, what about family? What about work? What about this? And then all these people from the world of heaven, these angels, they always had very interesting hobbies. Almost all of them collected something or were fascinated by something that was, so to speak, neither popular nor fashionable. And all such people from the world of heaven back then, long ago, complained to me that people judged them for the fact that, figuratively speaking, grown men were collecting some Japanese toys, gluing together some Transformers, and others laughed at them. Or another person also complained to me that this is what he liked to do, and people told him: “You’ll be poor all your life if you keep doing this.” And he stood before a choice, not understanding what to do: go work in a bank, in an office, somewhere, or not, although it would hurt his soul, his heart. This is all the world of heaven, the magical world of heaven.
I remember that... Well, when I was in the world of heaven, I communicated with people very cautiously. That is, no matter who I liked, I could feel, for example, true love for a girl, like in the movies, and under no circumstances let her come close to me. Because I understood that nothing would work out, because I was not a human — that’s how I called myself, that’s what I said, back then, when I was still little. And likewise, I could talk with people and understood that I had some friends, but I also understood that they were all as if temporary, while they all wanted to make plans forever, and I could not support them in that. And already then it formed in me that I tried not to give people false hope and always warned everyone that I might