Alexandr Korol

and that’s why he closed it? Or was it instead because I thought about it, and he sensed my thought and closed the window? That was the question. Considering, of course, my sensitivity, one could lean more toward the idea that I was the one who sensed it. That is, a person always gives birth to some thoughts and desires, and if he is near me, I immediately feel all those thoughts and desires. And they are not mine — they are his. And that is exactly how it was, in essence. Because when I was “zero” and “one” in the world of heaven as a child, I had no sensations, no thoughts, no desires. That’s why it was easy for me to recognize any thoughts, desires, or feelings of another person. Because I knew how I felt: I felt like “nothing.” I knew how I felt when I was alone, and how I felt when I was with someone else. So imagine this: I am sitting at home, listening to Yann Tiersen’s music, and that’s all — I don’t need anything else. I have no pain in my body, no thoughts, no desires at all — not bright desires, not dark desires, nothing. I am simply “zero.” And then imagine, whether I meet someone in person or someone writes me an SMS — back then there were SMS messages, fifteen years ago — in that moment I suddenly begin to feel hungry, or I suddenly feel insecurity in myself, or suddenly my knee starts to ache. And right away I understand that this is not mine, because I never have this when I am alone. And I describe all of this to the person, and of course they confirm it, saying that yes, all of it — their thoughts, desires, feelings, pain, and so on — belongs to them. But that is empathy, that is sensitivity. And yet, beyond sensitivity, it seemed to me that perhaps one could also influence people — I had such a thought. I never really did this. At most, I could imagine saying to someone: “Pay attention, you’ll feel something in your chest,” and then picture myself feeling warmth, and suddenly the person would automatically begin to feel it too. That was the extent of it, what I experienced back then as a child, and later, around my twenties, something like that would appear. But to actually impose desires — where I wish for something, and another person catches my wish and feels it as their own — that never happened, never. But then I began to suspect that maybe it was possible, after all those signs. And it so happened that this coincided with Big Alexander telling me that I would have certain abilities — though he didn’t call them abilities, he said “miracles.”