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[Alexandr Korol]

In tension and stress? So if someone close to you eats instant noodles, and you’ve always commented on it, and you’ve argued about it, then now you must catch yourself — you don’t have to force it — but catch yourself when you are, so to speak, “on cloud nine,” when you feel connected to the world of heaven, and suddenly you find that you don’t care. Not that it doesn’t matter at all, but as if you even look at it with a kind of love, watching as your relative or friend once again takes out those noodles, and you don’t want to say anything. You just want to watch and understand that somehow he is those noodles — that your relative and those noodles are part of one another. That is what characterizes him, and you accept him together with the noodles, as one whole — that this is who he is. And maybe this is that very love, that Christ- like love, that is so often preached everywhere. Maybe this is what it is — this acceptance of everything. That is another conclusion I made for myself in the past few days and wrote down, which must definitely be included in Volume Nine of “Alternative History”.

Another curious paradox here — miracles, really — is that when you enter the world of heaven, you still retain old memory, that is, the mind. You still remember with your mind, or maybe you even have it written down somewhere. Let me give a simple example with food so it’s clear, though of course this isn’t only about food — it applies to everything. Suppose you clearly remember that chips are bad, soda is harmful, and that porridge is good for you. But when you are in the world of heaven, when your soul is truly connected to God — you must be sure of this, because who knows, maybe your soul is connected to the devil instead — but when your soul is connected to God, then you can trust your feelings, because you are directly connected to nature. Your feelings are precisely the voice of God, do you understand? These inner feelings highlight everything for you, and they will not deceive you. So if you are in the world of heaven, truly in it, and you feel that you suddenly want, say, to eat a huge pizza or a burger at five in the morning, and then your mind kicks in, tensing up, saying: “No, that’s wrong, you’ll get fat and unattractive, people say you shouldn’t eat at night” — the point is, that is the mistake.