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[Alexandr Korol]

What I’ve noticed happening to me over the past two months is something like this — let me give a food example, though it works the same way with everything. Say, figuratively, I want to order some unhealthy food at 4 a.m., but I don’t, and instead I force myself in the morning to eat something “healthy.” Then I realize: what I truly want is what my soul is asking for. And my soul right now is connected to God. So what happens then? From old memory I “know” how things are supposed to go: if you eat only what you feel like, that’s dangerous, you can’t trust your feelings — that’s what all the earlier volumes of “Alternative History” taught, and it’s frightening to rely on feelings. But here it turns out that, on the contrary, you must start trusting your feelings. And so, imagine, I begin trusting them — I start eating exactly what I feel drawn to. And my mind just can’t wrap itself around this, because it seems to go against every rule. Imagine craving Coca- Cola on an empty stomach. In my case it happens to be cola; in your case it might be something else, so don’t latch onto the cola itself — it really might harm your health. But imagine this: I drink cola instead of water, and I feel perfect — no allergy, no runny nose, nothing. I feel strong, like a bull. Then I forbid myself cola and try to eat “healthy,” drink plain water — and suddenly I feel awful. Can you believe it? And I’ve been exploring this for two weeks straight, and it turns out that when I fully trusted my feelings — but again, you really do have to be careful here, seriously, guys — if the feelings are light-filled, they’ll never push you toward anything forbidden or sinful. Anything that is sinful, if you feel drawn to it, that’s from the devil. From God you will never feel such urges, keep that in mind. And so here’s what happened: before, I would force myself to wake up early, at 8 a.m., but in truth my feelings told me I wanted to keep sleeping. And I thought: “Well, maybe in the past it was necessary not to trust feelings, when you were in the underworld, and you had to live by rules, because apart from rules there was nothing that could serve as light to guide you anywhere good.” But here, in the world of heaven, the world of feelings, you must trust them. And I started sleeping as my soul wanted, and within just a week I looked so refreshed that even my friend said: “Wow, you’ve actually gotten younger.” And all I did was stop following a fixed schedule and sleep when I felt like it. I started eating how I felt. Working how I felt.