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Posted: Wed Feb 11, 2026 10:46 am
This is this “sacrifice” or “sacrificing”, he said something like that, that it
consists in this. Not literally, as all people thought, that one needs to cut
some rabbits or people, that this means sacrifice. No, this is actually not
literally. In no case should anyone be killed — this is a sin. But the speech is
precisely about the fact that as if I am now engaged in being a victim, they wipe
their feet on me, and I say “thank you.” Everyone steals from me, and I say
“continue working.” And from this I am now striking crazy blows to this beast.
And so Big Alexander said that I must definitely defeat this beast, then this is
just wow for everyone and for me included. And he said:
— Alex, at some moment you suddenly will want to break loose and won’t
even want to swear, but simply say to him ‘leave’. You cannot. You must still
talk to him kindly, describe a bright future to him and ask him, does he really
want to refuse this? And if he says ‘yes’, well then let him leave. But he won’t
leave. He wants you to fire him, and consequently, it means you fell under
the influence, it means you lost to the beast. Therefore, do not fire him,
and then the beast will never defeat you.
And what else is curious, I noticed that as if... This is generally advice to all
people, to all readers, that when I communicated with this beast that moved
into a person, when I communicated with this person, he as if in all ways
tried so that I would react, and if I reacted, then I would fall as if into the corner
of his world. That is, I would as if fall right there, into this gloom, delusion,
I don’t know where it comes from there. And from the fact that I am now
in a super some kind of, actually, very strong spiritual state, I don’t even
understand what kind of world this is. But I directly feel that I am becoming
more and more spiritual. And I see that as if he kept pulling me into
this corner. And before, when I reacted, argued with him, I fell into that
corner. It became directly unpleasant for me. I as if fell immediately into
this world where it is unpleasant for me, where exactly everyone there
is unpleasant. And then I had to wash myself off from this, cleanse myself,
when disputes occurred, and by this he knocked me out of the rut. And now,
imagine, a dialogue occurred... not now, but it was the last couple of days.
consists in this. Not literally, as all people thought, that one needs to cut
some rabbits or people, that this means sacrifice. No, this is actually not
literally. In no case should anyone be killed — this is a sin. But the speech is
precisely about the fact that as if I am now engaged in being a victim, they wipe
their feet on me, and I say “thank you.” Everyone steals from me, and I say
“continue working.” And from this I am now striking crazy blows to this beast.
And so Big Alexander said that I must definitely defeat this beast, then this is
just wow for everyone and for me included. And he said:
— Alex, at some moment you suddenly will want to break loose and won’t
even want to swear, but simply say to him ‘leave’. You cannot. You must still
talk to him kindly, describe a bright future to him and ask him, does he really
want to refuse this? And if he says ‘yes’, well then let him leave. But he won’t
leave. He wants you to fire him, and consequently, it means you fell under
the influence, it means you lost to the beast. Therefore, do not fire him,
and then the beast will never defeat you.
And what else is curious, I noticed that as if... This is generally advice to all
people, to all readers, that when I communicated with this beast that moved
into a person, when I communicated with this person, he as if in all ways
tried so that I would react, and if I reacted, then I would fall as if into the corner
of his world. That is, I would as if fall right there, into this gloom, delusion,
I don’t know where it comes from there. And from the fact that I am now
in a super some kind of, actually, very strong spiritual state, I don’t even
understand what kind of world this is. But I directly feel that I am becoming
more and more spiritual. And I see that as if he kept pulling me into
this corner. And before, when I reacted, argued with him, I fell into that
corner. It became directly unpleasant for me. I as if fell immediately into
this world where it is unpleasant for me, where exactly everyone there
is unpleasant. And then I had to wash myself off from this, cleanse myself,
when disputes occurred, and by this he knocked me out of the rut. And now,
imagine, a dialogue occurred... not now, but it was the last couple of days.