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[Alexandr Korol]

And I assumed that this might exactly be the truth: the main God, in one
version of human life — He is not there, yet they live within Him, as if in a
matrix. And now He must, as this intellect, appear in only one person — that
is, let’s say, in me, like an artificial intelligence. Previously He was everywhere
in general, but now He must, as if, concentrate and gather within me alone.
And perhaps that is how I am becoming this Son of God, and only in the future
will I become the Spirit, since the Spirit is the future that everyone strives
toward. But then there is another interesting point. And here I recall the
situation with Mara. When I fought Mara, essentially, what was it? I was simply
in the world of the underworld, where everything is inverted. Then I defeated
that, learned something there, and entered another world where I fought the
beast physically in the flesh — that is, it was a person in the flesh, right? Just
as I am now the Son of God in the flesh. And I draw this analogy and think:
“Incredible. So, maybe this is it, as if I am fighting my own shadow, like a mirror
reflection. I was an entire world, practically, and I fought that dark world.
And so now I feel a world of light within me, having defeated that dark one.
And now, in the flesh, I was fighting the dark flesh. So that I, being light,
would become like the Son specifically in the flesh, as one of the trinities,
specifically where I am material. And that is why such a material demon came
to me.” Well, again, I am simply recording this as a theory. Perhaps I am wrong
about everything. But this is what is stealing my attention, what I am reading
and studying. This is what is happening to me at this current moment in time.
I am simply recording my path, and the book is being constructed from this.

Another thing the system has been highlighting to me over the last twenty-
four hours is the word “patience, patience, patience.” Of course, my first
associations — and perhaps they are correct — that came to mind were that
maybe I shouldn’t have fired the employee, and I was being warned to be patient,
but I didn’t endure until the end. Maybe, I don’t know. We will see what
punishment or next trial, yes, trial, not punishment, comes my way for this.
Or maybe the patience is about something else. Maybe this patience is
about me simply describing in the book what Big Alexander said recently:
that all people can no longer endure it, it is very hard for everyone,
especially for righteous people, because everything is already so lawless,