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[Alexandr Korol]

And after these four days, there are still three more days. And these
following trinities that come — what we were getting acquainted with
through the number four back then was the division of one of these three.
And this three, the last one after the four — meaning first comes, well, it
doesn’t matter in what sequence, let’s say the material world, then the spiritual
world, and the very last seven — it isn’t just a spiritual world, it is already
everything, the Spirit, besides the spiritual and the material, meaning besides
the heart and the mind, the next thing is precisely this Spirit, the seventh,
if one analyzes this matrix. And maybe that is how it all is, that I am
precisely maneuvering now into the material world, now into the world of
the heart, now into the material world, now into the world of the heart —
I will put it that way, the “world of the heart.” And it’s as if, when they
are together in balance, I become this Spirit, that is, this third kind of
element. And it’s as if I am now looking for this balance in this trinity.
And everything is pointing this out to me. And not just pointing to this
“flesh, flesh,” because, you know what interesting thing I noticed? Truly, it’s
so unusual, I confess honestly, I felt as if I was always in the spiritual world
anyway. Even though it was divided into heaven, earth, the underworld,
the world of the dead, it was as if all of it was the spiritual world. Well, more
accurately, I wouldn’t say it was the world of the heart, although... well, as
if it was something non-material, and now it’s as if I am in some kind of
material world anyway. It also has certain gradations and divisions. And I am
looking for some kind of balance, switching now there, now here.
And here I had a revelation. If the Father is the creator of the world and
represents the past, then it means I am not becoming the Father. You see, it
is natural for people to think that if someone is the Son of God, since he is
the Son, he must be young and must age in order to become wise. Well, on
one hand, yes, one could think that way. But if you look at it differently,
that the Father is generally... Let’s imagine it another way, as I suggested:
if I am to become not the Father, and since everything is highlighting an
emphasis on the flesh to me, then it means I must become the Son of God.
Here I am, precisely in the material world, precisely learning to explain
everything, to prove everything. These are not some feelings of the heart; this
is specifically the mind, the intellect, and it is here, on earth, for the people.