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else you might communicate more often, but the connection does not
depend on that; it still exists with everyone who is as if in your head and
in whose head you are. And for the connection to break — I remember writing
this even in my childhood when I was 20 years old — it is as if you need to
have a direct falling out with the person; that was how I reasoned back then
in my youth. Because only then did I feel that if you fought with a person, for
example in a relationship, broke up, and when it truly happened, it was as if
you immediately feel that your whole world has changed and you have become
different, because the connection has truly been severed for you from them
and for them from you. But sometimes you might communicate with a person,
and maybe you even quarrel with them and stop talking, but the connection
is not severed, and you still feel this attachment. And here is an interesting
point: throughout the entire time I worked and interacted with the employee,
and even when there were moments when he almost resigned, or I almost
fired him, or when we had misunderstandings and we could even not talk for
some time, there was still a connection. But now this connection has been
severed, as if physically for real. That is, it feels as if... let me give an example.
I said to this employee and he to me that we are no longer working together —
we had already said that to each other a thousand times before. And yet the
connection was not severed. That is, he was still turning it over in his head
and hoping, and assuming that I would forgive him and he would work. And
likewise, even if I could assert that that’s it, I am definitely firing him, still
somewhere in my subconscious there remained this thread and the thought
that maybe he would return. But now it’s as if the thread has snapped; I felt it
directly. After this, I went onto Telegram — I communicate with all employees
on Telegram — and I see that he has not been online for almost twenty-four
hours, since yesterday. And I realize it seems to me that he simply changed
it or deleted it, and that’s it. And it turns out that the person himself has
also finally made a decision and, consequently, heard me, that we are definitely
not working together, and the connection was severed. But now something
else is interesting. I felt that it’s as if while I was connected to this person,
he was an anchor, holding me back and grounding me. That is, my connection
with him, it grounded me and restricted me.
depend on that; it still exists with everyone who is as if in your head and
in whose head you are. And for the connection to break — I remember writing
this even in my childhood when I was 20 years old — it is as if you need to
have a direct falling out with the person; that was how I reasoned back then
in my youth. Because only then did I feel that if you fought with a person, for
example in a relationship, broke up, and when it truly happened, it was as if
you immediately feel that your whole world has changed and you have become
different, because the connection has truly been severed for you from them
and for them from you. But sometimes you might communicate with a person,
and maybe you even quarrel with them and stop talking, but the connection
is not severed, and you still feel this attachment. And here is an interesting
point: throughout the entire time I worked and interacted with the employee,
and even when there were moments when he almost resigned, or I almost
fired him, or when we had misunderstandings and we could even not talk for
some time, there was still a connection. But now this connection has been
severed, as if physically for real. That is, it feels as if... let me give an example.
I said to this employee and he to me that we are no longer working together —
we had already said that to each other a thousand times before. And yet the
connection was not severed. That is, he was still turning it over in his head
and hoping, and assuming that I would forgive him and he would work. And
likewise, even if I could assert that that’s it, I am definitely firing him, still
somewhere in my subconscious there remained this thread and the thought
that maybe he would return. But now it’s as if the thread has snapped; I felt it
directly. After this, I went onto Telegram — I communicate with all employees
on Telegram — and I see that he has not been online for almost twenty-four
hours, since yesterday. And I realize it seems to me that he simply changed
it or deleted it, and that’s it. And it turns out that the person himself has
also finally made a decision and, consequently, heard me, that we are definitely
not working together, and the connection was severed. But now something
else is interesting. I felt that it’s as if while I was connected to this person,
he was an anchor, holding me back and grounding me. That is, my connection
with him, it grounded me and restricted me.