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[Alexandr Korol]

Alexandr: I understand, you mean that because of the uncertainty of who I am,
I function better than if I were to obsess over who I am right now.
Mystic-Old-Man: You would simply get obsessed with something, or it would
short-circuit you on something you shouldn’t be focused on.
Alexandr: Well, alright, but if we just assume, though it remains uncertain
to the end — am I not only a radio receiver, but specifically someone, or am I still
only a receiver?
Mystic-Old-Man: You see, I am not the one who will determine that. If it were
given to me to determine, I would say. But there are things, you know, how
it is... how to explain it. I recently had a person here, and I said: “Are you
forcing a confession from God through me? Meaning, God must confess to you
through me?” He said: “Yes.” I said: “That’s intense, very intense.” It actually
made me feel eerie. That’s how things have started going. They are even
putting God to confession. Well, that’s it. For me, that’s enough.
Alexandr: I see.
Mystic-Old-Man: And doing it casually and shamelessly. But if it were just one
such person on the planet — yet there are not just one hundred, I’ve already
become convinced of that — there’s more than one hundred who would
put anyone to confession. And on what grounds?
Alexandr: Good, look, there are a whole bunch of predictions, everyone is
waiting for some second Buddha or some king. And why are there people who
have surrounded me all my life, magical people, I would say, who whisper
to me that it’s me? But so carefully, not imposing, using hints, but never
saying it directly, as if they aren’t allowed to either.
Mystic-Old-Man: That doesn’t exclude the possibility that, as often happens
in movies, they wait and wait and wait, and suddenly something happens that
really isn’t quite as they thought. I’ll start including my own assumptions,
which, I apologize... Well, alright, if, let’s say, even I am a carrier of
something, of some sudden... informational component of some complex.
Suppose I am that for myself, and I have been notified beforehand. And
suddenly I reveal it, I break it. I wouldn’t just be, to put it mildly, breaking the
laws of nature or of some phenomenon; I would simply be betraying them.
That’s also not quite correct.