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[Alexandr Korol]

tell you the other 50% of the lies just so you can blow him away and validate
yourself? Why do you need that? You must be free from this. You already know
he is wrong. You already know he did bad things. You already know from us
that there is another 50% of hidden lies that he is too afraid to mention.
But he is a hostage to that; he is a slave to it. Why are you signing yourself up
for this and getting yourself dirty?” This is what the aliens are telling me.
This is the inner path and the inner struggle I am going through right now.
And this is the road home.

I’ve just been speaking with the voice, and I asked what else I should say.
You see, I have to get used to this again — returning to the state where
I discuss everything with them first. I asked them what I missed, and
they said: “You haven’t told them much yet. Tell them why you began to
hear the voice, what happened to you, and what you did to achieve this.”
And they are showing me. I think, well, fine — whether I did it or they did it
doesn’t matter anymore. But the essence is that I’m not living in the city
right now; it’s as if the city was creating a block and a noise. Living in the
mountains, the change of scenery, the completely different dwelling — this
contributed to my mind losing its “nourishment,” while the “mindless” state
began to intensify. That’s the first factor. The second factor is that previously,
wherever I lived, someone was always close at hand — in the next house, in
the next apartment. I often rented apartments for employees a floor above or
below me. Someone was always there and in touch, whether friends or staff.
I always “lived alone” to work on books, yet someone was always right
there. But here, it turned out I’m in a place where there is no one. It
would take many hours just to reach me. Who is going to fly out here?
No one. And that worked very strongly — the feeling that I am truly far away
from society, far from the noise of the metropolis, far from people, even my
own people. And the final key element: even if you go into the woods, if you
are obsessed with a specific person and you stay in touch, tied to each other
by conflicts or work, that acts as a massive “jammer” for a human. It was
only when I said goodbye to that employee — who, like an energy vampire,
held all my attention and was constantly in my head — only when I let him
go and he found another job, that I felt this move into the deep “cosmos.”