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[Alexandr Korol]

When we truly released each other, I became even more liberated and felt
an even greater amount of free attention. From there, everything began to
happen even more intensely.
Then Big Alexander said that the aliens are actually doing this — they are
resetting me, cleaning me with some kind of beam. It became so powerful
that I felt I had disconnected from the world of people and entered this
“corridor,” this vacuum where there are no thoughts at all. I feel my body only
“very slightly” — I’ll put it exactly like that, “very slightly,” because there’s
no other way to express it, even if it sounds funny. And then the voice, and
these dialogues... The voice, and you with yourself, and this voice. That’s how
it happened. I realized the conclusion: people make you human when you are
strongly connected to them. When I cut those ties and remained alone with
my inner voice, I left the world of people for an otherworldly realm. But the
aliens hinted — three days ago — that I am still facing a choice. I can still return
to the world of people, or I can stay in this magical world and become even
more deified. There is no set time for this; I could do it in a day or drag it out
for years. It depends entirely on me. I told this to Big Alexander, and he said:
“Exactly, we need you to cognize this quickly now, to learn it, so that it all
happens.” I told him I have this vision — it’s in all the mythological stories,
in Ragnarok, even in The Matrix — a feeling that if I finally leave the world
of people and enter only my primary, cosmic world, then all other worlds
will be erased. Only my world will remain. A system reboot will occur,
like in the movie. It’s curious: in The Matrix, you see Neo struggling first
with society, then entering the underworld and fighting Agent Smith — the
beast again. He goes through all of it. And as the boy with the spoon explains
to him — and this is the secret of the abilities I should be developing now —
when I maximally deify myself, I must realize that I am this entire world.
Everything I see, I can control. The boy says: “Do not try to bend the spoon;
that’s impossible. Instead, only try to realize the truth: there is no spoon.”
It’s about you. You must realize who you are, free yourself from the human,
and deify yourself to the point where you understand that everything you
see is just a projection of you. Which means you can distort it however
you wish. I’m being led toward all of this now. But again, it’s not a given.