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Posted: Wed Feb 11, 2026 1:49 pm
I had been searching for a place for so long, not knowing if I would find it.
It all started back on April 10th — this feeling that I must find “the place.”
I didn’t understand if it was just a spiritual place, a state of mind I needed to
find, or if it had to be physically anchored. It turned out to be both. And then
this house is found, this haven. Not just a house in the literal physical sense,
but a home for the soul — a refuge. I find this place, and it truly associates
in my mind with how I used to live in Los Angeles. And then these strange
feelings start occurring, that something is about to happen in the world soon,
that it’s not for nothing that I am here.
But here is the interesting thing: why did I suddenly notice that this has already
happened and is now repeating? In 2019, in the month of August, I rented a
villa in the hills of Los Angeles. I gathered a bunch of friends from Russia who
flew out specifically to see me to celebrate my birthday. I decided to celebrate
— you know, usually I don’t “have” birthdays at all — but I thought, “Well,
why not, everything seems fine.” And then, one fine day — I don’t remember
the exact date, I didn’t record it strictly — I just wake up and say to everyone:
— Guys, listen, buy me a ticket for tonight or tomorrow morning to Russia.
I am leaving forever, — this was August 2019. And everyone says:
— What? What do you mean?
— Well, I’m leaving.
— But how? What about the birthday? What about the people? What about
the house we’re supposed to move into tomorrow?
— I don’t care. Nothing is more important than the fact that I need to go.
— But what? Why?
— I don’t know. I just can’t stay in America anymore. I need to leave urgently.
— What about us?
— I don’t know about you.
My whole life is ultimately about my own path. Of course, people look closely
at me, taking things from my personal experience that I share in my books
and applying it to themselves. Naturally, if I suddenly understand that I need
to watch my health and stop eating fatty foods or pork, then a reader can take
note of that and listen. But these aren’t “my” tips; I can’t really give advice.
It all started back on April 10th — this feeling that I must find “the place.”
I didn’t understand if it was just a spiritual place, a state of mind I needed to
find, or if it had to be physically anchored. It turned out to be both. And then
this house is found, this haven. Not just a house in the literal physical sense,
but a home for the soul — a refuge. I find this place, and it truly associates
in my mind with how I used to live in Los Angeles. And then these strange
feelings start occurring, that something is about to happen in the world soon,
that it’s not for nothing that I am here.
But here is the interesting thing: why did I suddenly notice that this has already
happened and is now repeating? In 2019, in the month of August, I rented a
villa in the hills of Los Angeles. I gathered a bunch of friends from Russia who
flew out specifically to see me to celebrate my birthday. I decided to celebrate
— you know, usually I don’t “have” birthdays at all — but I thought, “Well,
why not, everything seems fine.” And then, one fine day — I don’t remember
the exact date, I didn’t record it strictly — I just wake up and say to everyone:
— Guys, listen, buy me a ticket for tonight or tomorrow morning to Russia.
I am leaving forever, — this was August 2019. And everyone says:
— What? What do you mean?
— Well, I’m leaving.
— But how? What about the birthday? What about the people? What about
the house we’re supposed to move into tomorrow?
— I don’t care. Nothing is more important than the fact that I need to go.
— But what? Why?
— I don’t know. I just can’t stay in America anymore. I need to leave urgently.
— What about us?
— I don’t know about you.
My whole life is ultimately about my own path. Of course, people look closely
at me, taking things from my personal experience that I share in my books
and applying it to themselves. Naturally, if I suddenly understand that I need
to watch my health and stop eating fatty foods or pork, then a reader can take
note of that and listen. But these aren’t “my” tips; I can’t really give advice.