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[Alexandr Korol]

But I will still say that as of today, October 7, I would not say that I am in a state
where I do not react to provocation 100%. All the same, something happens
and there is a little bit, even yesterday there was — just a little, but it was there.
Well, it was a little, but it was there. I don’t know how to work on this; it means
I am still, let’s say, in the vibrations, in the world of people where, let’s say, all
these provocations exist. But I wait and believe that I will reach such a spiritual
state which — what is most interesting — I had earlier in my childhood, where
I will not react to anything even by one percent, not even by a fraction of a
percent. But as it is, just a little... For instance, yesterday a person, another
employee — they started arguing with me a bit again as a pair, specifically,
like it was truly some kind of game. That is, the person was late and begins
to make up some stories instead of apologizing, instead of simply saying:
“Alexandr, I’m a fool, I’m late.” And the person was late to where he was
supposed to arrive, and I say: “Well, how can this be?” Seemingly in a kind way,
imagine, I just write to him: “How can this be?” That is, I don’t tell him he’s
a fool, I don’t say he’s fired or punished. And he says: “Well, it’s you, because
you said this, and then that, and generally yesterday you said something else,
and that’s why it’s like this.” And he just makes up different stories only to
make me, imagine, the guilty one and not admit his own guilt. And so I see
that one of the problems with people in general is that people do not want to,
they do not like to admit their mistakes. A person broke something and says:
“It was broken,” a person forgot and says that you distracted him. A person
was late, even though during the last five hours you told him to definitely go
now, that he won’t make it, that everything will close — yet he was late anyway
and starts making up other excuses and stories, that you are the one to blame
because you did something wrong yesterday. Well, imagine how ridiculous
it is. And it turns out that the employee is remote, and plus he is very, let’s
say, dishonest: he cheats, and lies, and steals — this is the second employee,
not the one I was fighting, imagine? And I close my eyes to all this — well,
okay, he’s human, they are all like that. But when, you see, they let you down
on Monday, on the first working day, and then instead of apologizing, he —
feeling your kindness and calmness — starts to shift everything onto you so that
you are also to blame, makes you the guilty one, and you are the superior, the
boss. Well, how can one not react? Naturally, something tightened inside me.