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[Alexandr Korol]

— Why is there no happiness? There is happiness there, only you also live your
whole life.
— Well, it’s not one hundred percent happiness there. There, you are half
restrained and proper, but half, yes, you are happy.
— Still, it is better to be officially happy at 50% every day, but for your whole
life, than to be happy like a fool at 100% for one month and then end up with
a bullet in your forehead or in prison.

Imagine, it was also so interesting — it’s as if someone, maybe this beast,
was talking to me through them, I don’t know. But it’s very interesting that
right like that, as if through two people, someone addressed me and said that
in the dark world people are happy, so why do they need this light world?
And about two days ago, Big Alexander told me the same thing: that the
darkness which arrived, which we all fell into, has long since retreated,
but people are chasing after it. People liked it so much — which is the paradox —
that everyone wants this darkness. Such a strange phenomenon.
And regarding Lucifer and the fact that he must be whitened, it was also said
there somehow... I still haven’t understood who is who... Big Alexander
explained this very complexly. That it’s as if there is this Lucifer, or someone
there, and that he is not dark, and that there are some people who, as I
understand it, seem to be in power, who are supposed to be choosing peace
now and acting in the world. But among them, there are some who are sinful
and bad, and they all need to stop and think now and become good. And
that they are hindering him and not letting him be whitened because they
are behaving badly, let’s say, doing some bad things. And that if they do not
become good now, this Lucifer will punish them. Well, something like that.
Very strange. And how was I reflecting on this topic before I clarified the matter
of Lucifer and the darkness with Big Alexander?