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[Alexandr Korol]

But the game isn’t to blame; the movie isn’t to blame. And it’s the same
with a book; it’s as if this main Spirit needs my book to contain so many
different examples and stories so that when it is convenient for this Spirit
to hint at something to someone, it will slip you this book and create this
illusion, so it will “seem” to you that this chapter is about you. This Spirit,
after all, communicates through signs. And everything that “seems” to us is real;
it is this driving force. And it is getting to know me more and more, revealing
itself more openly. We directly communicate every day, though I don’t see it
physically — it’s not like there’s a person with arms and legs. No, I am alone in
the house. But this driving force sends me a “hello” every day.
What is the probability — I’ve recorded this thousands of times — what is the
probability that I go into the bedroom, turn on a Spanish series, get a work
call, leave the bedroom for several hours, and when I return, many episodes
have passed, and I sit down on the bed exactly at the moment when a girl is
writing “144” on a glass and underlining it? This is more than a paradox. It is
pure mysticism. But you know what’s curious? I lived this way my whole life
before. That’s exactly how my book “Paradox” started, which I spent over
ten years writing. And it’s as if these paradoxes returning now are a hint
that I am returning — that this rebirth, this emergence from the darkness,
is happening. Because when I described this magical world as a child, it all
began with me describing a world of love, kindness, faith, and miracles.
And people who read my book would have these things start happening to
them that very day or the next. People were in shock: “How can this be?”
It was as if they had entered a fairy tale. Like in the movies Big Fish or
Interstate 60 — as if they had entered something like that. But then I lost it
all, and now it has all returned. I am back in this world, my favorite magical
world, and therefore this driving force communicates with me directly now
— signs are everywhere, through everything. For me, it’s as if God is literally
communicating with me openly. But again, it’s not an old man in a sheet
without underwear. It is an intelligence, this mind. And of course, when it is
present near you, your inner feelings are filled with such warmth, inspiration,
exhilaration, love, and happiness. This past week I’ve been feeling very
strongly: success, success, happiness, success, luck, happiness, success.
It’s as if possibilities and ideas... I’ve been writing down ideas all week;