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Posted: Wed Feb 11, 2026 2:05 pm
such things happened. Truly, until the moment the COVID-19 pandemic
occurred, I simply didn’t have a focus on it; it wasn’t “loaded” in my head.
I hadn’t noticed before that there are a whole bunch of movies about people
getting sick or a virus happening. It’s as if I never gave any importance to
the fact that in the past, there were many viruses and diseases that wiped
out half the Earth’s population. I somehow didn’t pay attention to it, as
if I didn’t know or didn’t understand. And when all this began to happen
in 2020, everyone had such different sensations. Some people withdrew
into themselves and seemed to become deeper, perhaps, and re-evaluated
everything in a good sense of the word. Their values changed regarding
what is actually important in life and who is dear to you. But I also saw mad
people who had seemingly hidden their madness behind the masks of normal
people, but those masks came off when everything happened. So many people
became insane, aggressively evil, and crazy. It was terrifying, honestly — not
just to go outside, but since 2020, I stopped visiting social networks entirely.
I mean, before I could still occasionally look into them, but from 2020 on, I
had to leave all social media because there was only aggressive panic there.
Everyone was writing to me: “we are all going to die, answer me, and if
you don’t answer it means you don’t care about people,” “aha, you’re not
answering, you’re heartless.” It was just panic. And people didn’t understand
that it wasn’t just two of them — I was receiving thousands of such letters.
To avoid feeling all that pain, fear, and the madness of people, I had to stop
looking into social networks and officially announce that I was no longer
there, so don’t even look. I did this so people wouldn’t even have thoughts like
I knew something but wasn’t saying it, or whatever. When I saw how everyone’s
masks were removed, how all people changed abruptly when everything
happened in 2020, I, of course, changed too — and it was uncontrollable.
But it’s good that I didn’t fall into some kind of aggression, panic, or madness,
and didn’t run out into the street yelling with signs: “The end is here for
everyone!” It’s good that I wasn’t carried in that direction. My position was
such — and I probably have my circle to thank for this, as they are people
with heads on their shoulders in any situation, even in global crises —
they told me right away: “Alex, you must understand, the most important
occurred, I simply didn’t have a focus on it; it wasn’t “loaded” in my head.
I hadn’t noticed before that there are a whole bunch of movies about people
getting sick or a virus happening. It’s as if I never gave any importance to
the fact that in the past, there were many viruses and diseases that wiped
out half the Earth’s population. I somehow didn’t pay attention to it, as
if I didn’t know or didn’t understand. And when all this began to happen
in 2020, everyone had such different sensations. Some people withdrew
into themselves and seemed to become deeper, perhaps, and re-evaluated
everything in a good sense of the word. Their values changed regarding
what is actually important in life and who is dear to you. But I also saw mad
people who had seemingly hidden their madness behind the masks of normal
people, but those masks came off when everything happened. So many people
became insane, aggressively evil, and crazy. It was terrifying, honestly — not
just to go outside, but since 2020, I stopped visiting social networks entirely.
I mean, before I could still occasionally look into them, but from 2020 on, I
had to leave all social media because there was only aggressive panic there.
Everyone was writing to me: “we are all going to die, answer me, and if
you don’t answer it means you don’t care about people,” “aha, you’re not
answering, you’re heartless.” It was just panic. And people didn’t understand
that it wasn’t just two of them — I was receiving thousands of such letters.
To avoid feeling all that pain, fear, and the madness of people, I had to stop
looking into social networks and officially announce that I was no longer
there, so don’t even look. I did this so people wouldn’t even have thoughts like
I knew something but wasn’t saying it, or whatever. When I saw how everyone’s
masks were removed, how all people changed abruptly when everything
happened in 2020, I, of course, changed too — and it was uncontrollable.
But it’s good that I didn’t fall into some kind of aggression, panic, or madness,
and didn’t run out into the street yelling with signs: “The end is here for
everyone!” It’s good that I wasn’t carried in that direction. My position was
such — and I probably have my circle to thank for this, as they are people
with heads on their shoulders in any situation, even in global crises —
they told me right away: “Alex, you must understand, the most important