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[Alexandr Korol]

give me another chance.” I will say: “I’m sorry, no.” Yet, there is no resentment,
no anger, nothing at all — I simply cannot say “yes.” I say: “It is not I who
decides; it’s as if a higher power is doing it already.” And I began to see how
many people — specifically the “dark” ones who haven’t purified themselves —
started to worry. Before, they might have thought something, argued,
or convinced themselves they were smarter or stronger, but now they’ve
started to worry, feeling as if their train has already left.

There is another interesting comment from Big Alexander. I have my
deputy — he used to be a good boy, but he suddenly became “bad.” What’s
most interesting is that this started exactly in 2021 or 2022, as if a demon had
possessed him. I mean, something literally entered him; he would practically
pounce on me — with words, I mean, not hands. There was one case — this
was the first time in our lives, as we had never fought — where I saw that he
was completely irrational, angry, and irritated. It was the beginning of the day;
we had met up with our friends and went to a cafe to eat. I was worried about
my friend, who is also my deputy, and I said to him:

— Listen, after we eat, maybe you should go today, or perhaps tomorrow,
to church alone. You absolutely must go to church.

And he just flew into a rage, as if it wasn’t him, but a devil inside. I thought
he was going to hit me, can you imagine? He started screaming at me, right
there in the restaurant in front of everyone — his acquaintances and mine —
yelling that he decides where to go and what to do, and that I don’t even
dare suggest anything to him.
You should have seen the eyes of the people sitting nearby; they were mostly
worried for him, of course. Everyone thought I would react somehow, but I had
no emotion on my face; I simply stood up from the table and went to church.
I thought, what is happening? Because he is a friend, after all... and besides,
it’s wrong to argue. I was in shock; I didn’t even say anything, I just left.
But here is the other interesting part. Following this, my friend — my
deputy — continued to go mad in all sorts of ways. Life began to tempt him; he
became lazy, and everything started leaning him toward something unknown.