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[Alexandr Korol]

And once again, everything there happened through death, which scared me
most of all. I mean, it’s a paradox: all the gods who became gods were first
killed. And I thought: “How can that be? It’s so scary, so bad,” back when
I first started writing about this three years ago. But in reality, it is merely
a transition.
Friend: Only when it actually happens will you understand that here,
it is nothing.
Alexandr: Yes, exactly.
Friend: Fear is also just a definition we give to certain things. A definition of
our life. What defines our life as us living for, say, 80 years and then dying?
In reality, we don’t know.
Alexandr: We’ll come back to that topic. We were discussing that time flows
differently. We need to arrive at that. Alright, wait. So, what’s my point?
It’s that I must master not just the four worlds I wrote about in my books
— like the kingdom of heaven, earth, the underworld, and the kingdom
of the dead — but specifically these universes. There are three of them,
like three apples, like three bubbles. And here is where I’m going with
this: I find the symbol of the Sovereign’s Orb — that sphere with a cross on
top. It personifies the idea that whoever holds it — which is why it’s called
“The Holder” — possesses power over all worlds. Many might assume it’s just
a globe, a representation of the Earth, but in reality, it has a sacred meaning.
Those intersections signify that you are literally steering all the worlds.
I mean, whoever mastered this understood what it was. There is no point
in someone holding the Orb in their hand right now if they haven’t grown
into it. Well, I am “growing into it” in the eighth volume; I find this Orb and
read about it, and it turns out that everyone calls it the Royal or Imperial
“Golden Apple.” And I think — wait, this might be it. And right then, it
was a revelation for me: that this apple is divided into these three worlds:
heaven, earth, and the underworld. If you look at them all together, if you
are the Sun God — there is your apple. It’s the world, the universe. On one
hand, this confirms why I go on to master other versions of myself. Because
this is me... meaning it was the Son, let’s say, who mastered this world.
But there is also the Father’s apple, and there is the Spirit’s apple. And
here they are again — these three universes, these three golden apples.
And I’ve been searching for them all this time.