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Posted: Wed Feb 11, 2026 2:59 pm
I already accepted that, but now you’re bringing me this massive bill.”
And then what happens? She goes to change the bill with a sour face and brings
the new one back, but she practically throws it on the table. She, the waitress,
acts even angrier and more offended, as if I’ve done something terrible
to her. I corrected her attempt to cheat me, and I did it very politely — with
actual fear, because I’m afraid of what will be said to me — and she comes
back with a grimmer face and tosses the bill at me. When I pay and leave,
she won’t even look at me, as if I’m hideous. I am shown this every day.
First, they cheat me; I say, “Oh, sorry, you made a mistake”; then they get
offended and angry at me, and then they treat me like I’m a freak. It’s some
kind of mysticism. I understand that the system is “polishing” me so I react
differently in these situations, tempering my wisdom, my psyche, and my
endurance. But I just don’t understand... Must I endure many more situations
like this so I simply stop being surprised by these evil people? Is the
whole point of this “Matrix” training program just to make me more
psychologically resilient? Or should I have called the manager and said,
“Listen, this girl basically told me to go to hell after messing up herself —
what is this nonsense? I am Alexandr Korol, after all.” But if I do that, it
feels like inflating my ego — like the wrong way out. Yet, I really want to do it.
And as long as I want to do it, it probably means I’m not ready. It means
it’s my weakness. Because I’d love to bend everyone to my will and say,
“Have you lost your minds?” One person cheats me, then a second,
a third, a fourth — and when I catch them, they make it seem like I am
the one who is bad and guilty. It’s just brutal; I’m in shock. Of course,
this isn’t the underworld. Everything is fine. The energy isn’t dark. But
the way people act like zombies, as if someone is controlling them to
specifically set up these situations and evaluate my reaction... it’s “fun.”
It really feels like I’m taking a test right now. It’s very “fun.”
What is today? November 13th.
And then what happens? She goes to change the bill with a sour face and brings
the new one back, but she practically throws it on the table. She, the waitress,
acts even angrier and more offended, as if I’ve done something terrible
to her. I corrected her attempt to cheat me, and I did it very politely — with
actual fear, because I’m afraid of what will be said to me — and she comes
back with a grimmer face and tosses the bill at me. When I pay and leave,
she won’t even look at me, as if I’m hideous. I am shown this every day.
First, they cheat me; I say, “Oh, sorry, you made a mistake”; then they get
offended and angry at me, and then they treat me like I’m a freak. It’s some
kind of mysticism. I understand that the system is “polishing” me so I react
differently in these situations, tempering my wisdom, my psyche, and my
endurance. But I just don’t understand... Must I endure many more situations
like this so I simply stop being surprised by these evil people? Is the
whole point of this “Matrix” training program just to make me more
psychologically resilient? Or should I have called the manager and said,
“Listen, this girl basically told me to go to hell after messing up herself —
what is this nonsense? I am Alexandr Korol, after all.” But if I do that, it
feels like inflating my ego — like the wrong way out. Yet, I really want to do it.
And as long as I want to do it, it probably means I’m not ready. It means
it’s my weakness. Because I’d love to bend everyone to my will and say,
“Have you lost your minds?” One person cheats me, then a second,
a third, a fourth — and when I catch them, they make it seem like I am
the one who is bad and guilty. It’s just brutal; I’m in shock. Of course,
this isn’t the underworld. Everything is fine. The energy isn’t dark. But
the way people act like zombies, as if someone is controlling them to
specifically set up these situations and evaluate my reaction... it’s “fun.”
It really feels like I’m taking a test right now. It’s very “fun.”
What is today? November 13th.