Alexandr Korol

Or, as I said about Baphomet, there are people there who constantly want to
punish all the sinners. You are in perpetual conflict with everyone, punishing
them all. Naturally, you do it according to the law. It’s like an eternal struggle,
a constant tension. And imagine, there are people who live there, in that dark
world where I was in the winter, and they don’t know it’s a dark world. They
just think that this hell I’ve described — this underworld — is simply “the
material world.” They think it’s just a place where miracles don’t exist and you
have to settle scores with everyone. You argue with people at work, at school,
with your parents — everywhere. If you build a relationship there, you get
cheated on. If you work, you aren’t paid your full salary, or you steal something
from work, and you think this is the material world. You think it’s a normal,
natural material world and that everyone in the world lives this way. That’s
how it is in that darkness. But you don’t know it’s darkness; you think it’s
just the material world.
And there are also moments when you go deep into yourself, watching the
movie Donnie Darko, listening to some languid, melancholic melody by Nine
Inch Nails, and you think: “This is super-spirituality, this is just wow, I’m in
space, I feel the energy, I’m completely without a mind, without thoughts.”
And it truly is like that, but it is still the night, with a tint of darkness. It
is still a place where the light has been turned off, which is curious. And
besides that, when I was in that darkness — where there was that kind of
spirituality and that kind of materiality — there was also something else: the
Spirit would inhabit me. I am without a mind, without thoughts, yet I’m
not being “sensitive” or, conversely, intellectual with thoughts; instead,
I’m looking at everything from the outside. I became the Spirit, but within
that darkness. It was as if I were an entity without a mind, without thoughts,
and without feelings — like a “zero.” That is what happened in the darkness.
Initially, I believed that in the darkness, under the moon, there is the world
of heaven, the earth, and the underworld — the world of the dead. I assumed
the world of heaven meant you are spiritual, within yourself, without
thoughts, but simply under the moon. Materiality meant you are just
a material person, but everyone else is bad, though you are a normal
material person. Then the underworld is where you have sins or you argue
with sinners — the struggle itself, the battle. That’s how I perceived it.