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[Alexandr Korol]

What else did Big Alexander say? He said that I am reset, as if I am completely
like a blank sheet of paper. I had already been writing this in my notes every
day, and then I get to him and he says the exact same thing. Well, that’s how
he described how I’ve changed. Then, for some reason, he said that I arrived
during a certain “window,” but once I leave, “the year 1937” will begin.
He repeated this several times. I don’t know what “the year 1937” means.
I think it was ‘37 — I hope I recorded it correctly. But some kind of “thirties”
year will begin once I leave. That’s what he said.
Then I said to him:

— I want to stay in Russia. Can I?
— You can.
— Seriously? I want to spend New Year’s and Christmas with my family.
— Yes, you can, please.
— And can I just stay for good?
— Well, you can stay for good, but on one condition: you must change your
location every two weeks.

In other words, I would have to live first at one dacha, then at another, then in
one apartment, then in another, making this shift every two weeks. He said I
need this for my psyche — if I stay. That’s how he put it.
And it’s also interesting that he told me something about my enemies.
He says: “You’ll turn your ring like this, think of something, and all your
enemies will be swept away.” And he says: “Well, go ahead, try it, imagine it.”
And can you imagine — I close my eyes, and I find that I can’t wish anything
bad upon anyone anymore, not even a single enemy. My soul felt so warm,
and I said to myself: “I want all these people to look at life from this same
kind of kind angle that I do. When I look at people now, I feel so much joy
for everyone. That would be better. Then they might see something good in
me, too.” Can you imagine? Can you imagine what actually happened to me?
I’ve become someone who surprises even himself by thinking this way.
I couldn’t wish anyone any harm or punishment — can you imagine?
That is how much life has polished me over the last six months.