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[Alexandr Korol]

What is the final conclusion? Big Alexander says that after this mutation I’m
currently undergoing — as of today, December 18th — a new life will begin.
A life from a clean slate. A pure white slate. There will be new books, new
information, a new everything, and a different, new “me.” To be honest,
I don’t know how to describe it, but I feel very unusual. I am truly no longer
in the underworld; I am in some other realm. I feel myself in a completely
new way, I see everything differently — the angle of perception has shifted
again, as if everything is illuminated by a different light. People perceive
me differently, and I sense the world and others in a totally new way.
It feels as if I am not in the world of humans anymore, but in some other world
— maybe it’s Paradise, maybe it’s Nirvana, maybe it’s the Sky. I don’t know what
it’s called. The essence is that now, as I re-read all my notes, it feels like I am
facing a choice: to return to the world of people with my wisdom, or to stay
where I have just arrived. I don’t know how it will play out. It’s as if I am still
comparing, still getting acquainted with this new world. Perhaps this world
is given to me so that I might discover that “third thing,” or perhaps this isn’t
the third world yet, but the second — that is the question. If we compare it to
Heaven and Earth, it’s as if I am in Heaven now — not the heaven I described
in the ninth volume, but a new one. And when I descend into what I call
the underworld, that feels like “Earth” to me; the world of people is Earth.
But where I am now is Heaven. Or, to put it another way: the world of people
is the underworld, and where I am now is Nirvana. Nirvana, Love... I’ve
had these inkling thoughts: what comes after Wisdom? What is the next
theme? Maybe it is Love — the kind they mean when they say “God is Love.”
Perhaps that is what I must describe next? I don’t know. But quite possibly,
the choice has already been made — as the movie The Matrix hints — and I just
have to realize it. I don’t yet understand: will I stay here where I’ve arrived?
It is a very good, kind, magical world, very unusual. Or will I return to
the people because I’ll grow bored here?
And what is most curious is that Big Alexander has mentioned more
than once — hinting — that many people do not actually want to leave the
underworld because they enjoy being there. He says that even when they
are given a taste of “Paradise,” they quickly leave because they find it boring
or uninteresting, and they are inevitably drawn back to the underworld.