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[Alexandr Korol]

— Wait, so you’re saying I can return to the Moon world or stay here in
the Sun world?
— Yes. But in the Sun world, you understand that you should have a family, a
wife, a child, an heir. It’s a family-oriented world, and everything is fine
here. But many find it boring, so they return to the world under the Moon.
Everyone chooses their own.
— Fine, — I replied, — but I have this feeling... even if I stay in this family
world and build a relationship, have kids — won’t I eventually get ‘full’ of
it just like I did with the Moon? What if it turns out I don’t want the Moon
or the Sun, but the third option I’ve always noticed? The third option —
to be alone. Completely disconnected from everyone and everything, neither
Moon nor Sun — something third.
— Exactly, — Alexander said, — But don’t rush. Why do you think God
doesn’t tell you what to choose? He is waiting for you to make the final
choice yourself: to stay under the Moon, under the Sun, or choose that third
option — to be ‘nothing and no one’ (the Zero). You can choose any path.
You can go back, stay here, or go further into the Zero.
— Alexander, look — if I go back there, it’s the Spirit of Justice again.
I’ll be arguing with everyone, surrounded by a mountain of sinful people.
I’ll be constantly correcting them, and they’ll be trying to deceive me.
There is no family or real relationship there — just girls who don’t know
how to love and aren’t faithful. The employees will be the same. That
world exists, and for some reason, it feels ‘native’ or familiar, even though
I’m pulled there.
— That’s only because you were there for so long and not enough time has
passed for you to break the habit. You’re just used to it, nothing more.
— Okay. So there’s that world pulling at me. And then there’s this new world...
here, it feels like there are no problems at all. No conflicts, no arguments.
Everything is calm, like it was in childhood. It really smells of ‘family’; it
makes me want to fall in love, get married, and have children. I want that
domestic life. But... it feels a bit boring. Too ordinary. Just a typical family life.
— Yes, that world exists too.
— But I feel that this Solar world is more material — as if things will actually
work out here. Without problems. I’m hypothesizing this theoretically,