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[Alexandr Korol]

probably, it is mentioned in the Bible that they will eternally be present with him in this Kingdom of God. Because this is precisely what it is: when I become the Spirit — this is my world, above these four. And there, too, will be people who are also in it, as a projection of my world. And they, consequently, are “without the mind” and are happy, and I am “without the mind” and am happy. And they will understand me from half a word, and will see me. And they will also be reading my books, which will be highlighted for them — this very “Alternative History.” These are people throughout the whole world. And they will be reading them and understanding what was with them, and who they have become, and where they have ended up. And they all, those who are in this Kingdom of God, will acknowledge me and my book. That is, somehow this is how this will be happening. And people who are not in the Kingdom of God will not see me. And those who are in the Kingdom of God — they will not see you, and you will not see them, as if they are out of focus. Here is how this will be happening.

Further on. I don’t know what world this relates to — the world of the earth under the sun, or the world where the Spirit, that is, the star, already is, but here is what I paid attention to: I see rays of light everywhere. That is, the light is always perceived differently in different worlds, and here it is perceived as a ray. When, you know, such a strip, a sun line falls through the window. And this sun line highlights you, it lands on the table, and on the table there is something lying, and this sun lands there. And so I, for some reason, see such rays everywhere. It is, as it were, symbolic of my state and of being where I am. I decided to underscore this, to take note of it as a reference point: if anyone is noticing this, it is the confirmation of all of this.

I begin to describe this state that I had today and right now: there is no evaluation, everything is the same, you cannot see the difference between people — who is what kind. Everything is as if the same, all the food is the same, everything is as if… well, not blurred, but there is no longer the good and the bad, in general. Everything is simply some kind of zero. Simply, either everything is, or there is nothing. And the feeling is also such, as if I am not breathing, I don’t feel the air. Or as if I am not breathing at all. And there is also the feeling that it is very hot from the inside, as if I am burning from the inside.