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[Alexandr Korol]

So she and I communicated like that, and what else is happening? I turn on music, and the music becomes so volumetric, so magical. But specifically the magical music — all the kind that I call “the world of the heart.” That is, all the music in which there is the code of this heart and of love, it becomes so volumetric that you simply just… You are really as if intoxicated and are in some kind of magic. Well, I begin to listen, naturally, since there both the feelings and the words also matter. And really, you can take note of this — that there is much more Russian music from the world of love than, let’s say, foreign. There is foreign too, but for some reason there is more Russian music from the world of love. And films, naturally. And precisely one of the films I want to record in the eleventh volume as a recommendation — is the film “Quantum Love.” I don’t know whose it is, French or what… And there this is there too… Although the music there is foreign, it generally exudes this atmosphere: what love or being in love is. And I just watched it, I listen to all this music, and I think: unreal in general, what is happening.

And I call Big Alexander yesterday, I tell him all of this. And he says:

— Alex, do you remember, you also said that there was some lady-friend of yours there, and we were laughing that she is like a bride in reserve?
— Ah! Serafima! — and I had just mentioned her in one of the books, in the third volume, I think, of “Alternative History.” — Well yes, there is such a Petersburg woman, an entity.
— Well, here you go, maybe this is the option too.

And further on he says that I should not hurry, and he says that I understood everything correctly. And he expressed it with such a word — I want to ask him about this word again later and even find out the decipherment somewhere: he said some word about what happened to me. I ask him: what word? He, of course, explains to me in complex language. I will try to repeat it, but I might say it with an error, maybe I did not fully understand the essence. But it’s as if, when I was in the world of the moon, then the Spirit of the moon entered into me. Then I was putting things in order there, then this Spirit of the moon went out of me. That now it is all working correctly. And I entered into the world of the sun, and the Spirit of the sun entered into me. And now I am putting things in order in it.